What I wanted to say to myself...

HannaSusi

I originally posted this on my wall, but some of my friends thought there might be something for others there as well.

I guess my main point with this is that you have to love yourself to do good things for yourself. Don't hate your body. Don't say bad things about it. Do everything you can to take better care of it FROM NOW ON. Don't dwell on your past.

I was thinking about my weight today.

I've come down from 105.5 kg / 232.6 lbs to 92.9 kg / 204.8 lbs in three months. That's not a HUGE loss yet, but definitely quite a lot. Almost half way where I'm going. And I've mainly done it by cutting carbs, counting calories to understand my portions better, and walking more. No secret, no magic ingredient. Just patience and determination.

3 years ago I was at my then-highest weight, which was the same number I'm at now. I panicked and swore I'd never be this heavy again, I dropped 8 kg / 17.6 lbs and.... Just kinda forgot about it. Got bored. Today, I wish I would have kept at it then. Today, I feel great, but 3 years ago I was disgusted by this weight. I approached weightloss with feelings of self-loathing, and it didn't work.

I know I shouldn't look back, I'm not going that way anyway. But I just feel sorry about how I've treated myself in the past. I wish I could hug myself and say it's going to be ok, I will never do that to myself again. I've said "I have hypothyroidism, I can't lose weight." That's *kitten*. My metabolism is a bit wonky, I know, but it's not an excuse to abuse myself. If anything, it should encourage me to take as good care as I can of this amazing system that is my body. It's been through a lot. It deserves it.

I'm sorry, my body. You're doing great. Thanks for everything. We can do this.

Will_Run_for_Food

I love this. We can be too hard on ourselves. Our body is the only one we've got, so we have to do our best to take care of it, and that means forgiving and loving ourselves.