Frustrated with myself

sissiluv

It feels like I'm spinning out of control. Every time I eat now since I plateaued a few months ago I feel guilty, like a failure. It got to the point where I was eating little enough to drive me straight into starvation mode, according to a dietitian I saw.
She laid out a meal plan for me on what to eat but the feelings still persist. Every time I look at someone skinnier to me I think about what they must eat in a day and that I should cut back even more.
I know it isn't smart to eat at around 1200 calories a day (for me at least. I'm 5'10)-that's what got me into starvation mode. But every time I go above it now it feels as though I'm binging, even if I'm just eating back burned calories.
I've taken breaks from MFP but then I don't count and I just feel even worse.

I don't know what to do.

Help?

AmIhealthyyet

Don't despair or beat up yourself!i read a book that totally changed and helped how I view food,it is called "have your cake and skinny jeans too". It has been a huge hellp for me dealing with those same issues!t

grimendale

I'd say trust the dietician. You can't treat food as the enemy or as something to feel bad about. I've been there. The last time I lost weight, I ended up in the same boat, and I sucummbed to the temptation to keep cutting out food (because I always felt guilty eating) and upping my exercise to offset that guilt. It reached a point where I was eating 300 calories a day, max, and working out for at least an hour six days a week. I did end up losing weight, but a lot of it was lean body mass. I was contantly exhausted and irritable, I got frequent headaches and I wasn't able to enjoy most of my life because I always felt like I was at risk of cheating on my diet (by which I mean I was afraid I would eat something) or that I was skipping my workouts to be with people. I did a lot of metabolic damage to myself that took years to repair, and I gained about 100 lbs (more than I lost in the first place) in the process of getting my metabolism back. This time, I worked with a dietician to make sure I didn't go back to anorexic levels and lost the weight that way. I now weigh 195 lbs (as opposed to 185 lbs by starving myself), but I have 5% less body fat and four less inches on my waist. I know it can seem tempting to keep cutting back, but it doesn't help. Make sure you get enough fuel. If you're plateauing, change something up. I hit a plateau about six months back that I couldn't shake (I just kept losing and finding the same 10 lbs), so I started doing Insanity to jump start things. I eat a lot more now, but I am losing body fat again. Food isn't the enemy and neither is your body. You just have to find the right balance. Good luck and feel free to add me.

hollyberry2012

Take a deep breath. Now take a couple more. If your own mind did a good job at food intake, you wouldnt be here in the first place right....

How 'bout let your daily intake be completely in the dieticians hands for a while. Give yourself a vacation from the worry of it...gradually i bet you will build up some trust and enjoy the journey much more:)