NSV... Still fat... But confident

ltfitz89

so for many many years I've been heavy, however when I was in high school I wanted to wear a bikini to the beach but couldn't stand to have people looking at me and thinking how could I go out with all my fat out there for everyone to see. So I lost a bunch of weight and out a bunch back on... But today I went to the beach and didn't wear my tank top over my bikini. I'm still fat.. Less fat than I was when I started this whole journey but fatter than I want to be at the beach in a bikini. But I wore it, and I didn't care who saw me. It was awkward at first, but you know what. I don't care. And when I go again in a few weeks I'm going to wear it again, and again and again and again until I feel uber comfortable wearing a bikini in public. So as I lose weight and tone up all my fatty flabby bits, I will look and feel better about my body. Someday I will own that teeny weeny yellow polka dot bikini and it will love me as much as I love it.