I've been down this road before...

kfheston78

Hi all,

I've been on MFP before. Didn't stick it out, but now I'm back.

Thing is: I've lost my weight about four times now, and gained it back. Most of the time, I didn't lose all of the weight. I'd lose twenty to thirty pounds, and then get restless or bored and give up. Or something stressful would happen and I'd give up.

But this time around HAS to be different, for many reasons:

1) I'm 35 now. The age when muscles, tendons and ligaments start to age. I was literally just diagnosed with plantar fasciitis. No bueno.

2) I have a son whom is about to turn 1. I don't want him to turn 2 and have a Mommy whom is tired all the time, moody all the time, and always on the computer.

3) Hubs and I want to have baby number 2. And pretty quickly. I have PCOS, and am 140 pounds over the recommended weight (110 over my "natural" weight range). Baby number 2 needs a fighting chance, and my current state of health can barely support MY life, much less two.

4) I SO want to be that girl that can do 5ks and 10ks and fun, crazy-challenging events like Warrior Dash. Not gonna' happen sitting here. So I gotta' get moving.

5) I was heavy when hubs married me. Now, I'm just plain obese. He has gained right along side me. I blame myself, and that is not okay. We met later in life. We missed out on each others 20s, we want to have each other as long as possible. That can only happen if we improve our health.

So here I am. Stepping out into the open and sharing all my stats. Pictures of my size. Real numbers of weight. And all the dark thoughts and deeds that have been chewing my brain and telling me that world travel, health and fitness, and two children to share it with isn't possible. And stomping the ever-living *kitten* out of them.

I hope some of you will join me.