Weekend Mayham

avr5097

Like many the weekends are my downfall. July 4th weekend I had so many things planned and knew my calorie counting would go out the window. I was okay with that since I figured it would be one weekend. Of course that weekend ending up being so much worse than I had thought in my head. Tuesday I got back to work and hoped that it would be okay and I would get back on track. I did but Friday came and I blew it again! I have no one to blame but myself; no one force fed me pizza and beer... I did that all on my own.
But now I am just so discouraged. The scale shows a near 4 pound gain. And I don't doubt it. But 4 pounds! 4 POUNDS! I worked so hard the entire month of June just to let 2 weekends destroy a month of work. I can't shake these feelings of frustration, anger and a little despair. I know that with focus I can fix this, I can get back on the horse but there is this mean voice in my back of my head telling me 'what's the point? I bet you just mess it up again and fail'.

How do you get over an upset? I know I just have to move on, today is a new day but I guess I'm looking for something that will make me feel better. I'm so mad at myself for indulging and making that month of hard work and almost an 8 pound loss meaningless.

Urg! I am just angry. I guess maybe I had to vent and I'm not actually looking for anything. My whole life I have faced this yo-yo. Up and down, up and down. I feel like I will never actually hit my goal weight and keep it off. I will forever be trapped on this roller coaster of fat gain and fat loss.