Choosing to be healthy

Pucks_and_Balls

It might go without saying that I'm as far from the fitness wagon as I can get. I have managed to maintain about 20 pounds of lost weight since I was 219 pounds when I started this whole thing in 2013. Much to my disappointment, I haven't lost anything substantial since. A lot of my family will tell me I look skinnier or more "toned" (yeah, I know, but not my word choice!), but when the scale isn't going down, I have a hard time seeing it that way. I've wavered between 194 and 199 for most of this year, and I'm tired of wasting time.

Yesterday I finished training for my job and was hungry since I wasn't going to be eating dinner for a while. I ended up having an Auntie Anne's pepperoni pretzel. I know...not the best choice! Those things taste amazing, but when I was on my way home, I realized...you know, I can do this healthy eating/weight loss thing, but for whatever reason, I keep choosing not to. I'm the one who's having fast food instead of a salad or trying a new recipe. I'm not packing healthier snacks from home and instead going right for candy or buttery foods like soft pretzels. I keep choosing soda as my cold drink of choice instead of keeping my promise to myself to drink water between meals. My diet is part of the reason why I'm running 15-20 miles a week and still not really losing weight.

My mom has always wanted to start exercising and lose weight, but finally she admitted she just didn't want it bad enough. That made me sad to hear from her, but it also woke me up to realizing that if I had wanted it enough for myself, I could've been at my goal weight by now. Instead, I kept making excuses about my job search, being depressed and working untraditional hours as to why I just wasn't getting the job done.

Well, no more. While I still want to enjoy some foods in moderation, I want to choose the healthier route to life. I turned 30 last month, so now is a good time to start making this a good next 10 years, and even though I haven't found my dream job and have a lot of bad days, I know getting healthier and seeing the scale drop will make a difference.

Anyone with me?

Tintin13

Sounds like you're on the right track. I also feel like I workout just so I can eat all the yummy stuff still