Please learn from my mistake (I know I have!)

DrunkInAGolfCart

Okay, about a year ago I started THIS THREAD in which I wallowed in defeat. I had been on a "health kick" for a few months (without logging or weighing anything) and was devastated to find out I weighed 255lbs (116lbs). I had thought I'd be about 102kg and felt SO defeated.

I slipped into major depression and ate everything in sight for the next 6 months until finally I said "ENOUGH" and started logging EVERYTHING. I've overcome addiction to pain meds. I'm active now. Sleeping patterns perfect. I'm the healthiest I've been in years.

Considering I was so defeated by my previous experience I avoided the scale when I started. I have no idea what my starting weight was this time around. More than 116kg, I'll tell you that much.

Yesterday I was forced to weigh myself by my doctor. I was nervous but eh, considering how hard I've worked I was just hoping for anything under 116kg.

My result? 127kg.

I was upset but at the same time I thought "Well, now it's time to make sure that a year from now I don't go up another 11kg"

My starting weight must have been so much more than I thought because I've gone down two dress sizes since March. But I still haven't lost the weight I put on last time I wallowed in defeat over a silly number. Instead I've gone up 11kg!

So please, if you're reading this, REMEMBER: Think of where you want to be a year from now. Slimmer than you are now OR 11kg heavier?