22 - Ready for change.

FindingMyself92

Hey Everyone,
My name is Ashley.
I am 22 - turning 23 in a few months, and well, I need to make a change.

I have been overweight for almost all of my life - and things are just spinning out of control.
I don't have much in terms of a support circle - I only have one friend, and my family.
Both say they want to see my change, but neither would really support me when needed.

It's embarrassing to say that I am 22 - and I am where I am. I can barely handle walking anywhere, simple tasks leave me very breathless, and my knees and back are in pain just standing. I got invited to go to an amusement park with my Aunt and cousin in 2 weeks - but well, I don't fit in the rides, nor can I really handle the walking all day. So I have no idea how that will work out.
It's embarrassing that my mom, who has significant back problems that can never be cured, is able to do more than I am because of my weight.

I'm not a fan of people - so I tend to hide out in my house alone a lot. I battle depression, and that adds to my hibernating.

I hate where I am, and I know I need to change. I just hope that I can do this - I have failed so many times. I recently just walked away from a 6 year mentally and emotionally exhausting relationship, so I figured now I need to start taking care of me - in all aspects.

My starting weight is about 350 (it's hard to know all the time, not all scales will read my weight)
but I have been around 340-350 for the last 6 months.

SW: 350
GW: 150

It's not just about weight for me though, also clothing and such (as I don't know what weight will suit my body and such)

Shirt Size: 2x-3x
Pants: 26 / 3x

Goals : Shirts - L and Pants - 14 or less.

Here we go! Hope I can make some friends along the way too.
Feel free to add me (I do fully understand how to navigate the site so I don't need help there:) )

FindingMyself92