What a wild ride!

BoxerBrawler

Hi people, I hope everyone is doing well.

I just felt like taking a moment to vent and reflect a bit.

I also like to put things in writing out here because then I have to own it.

I lost over 80 pounds before I even discovered MFP. I did it by changing the way I eat and adding exercise, mostly cardio into my life. It was awesome how the weight fell off of me. I went through all of the phases... people noticing, dropping clothing sizes, my tastes changing, feeling fuller quicker, tons of energy, wicked happy and motivated and all the side effects that come from a healthy nutrition and exercise plan I found MFP and it helped me to tighten up my calories and food choices and helped me to find great advice, learn about macro's and different exercises. It's been very cool. The dark side... I've consistently eaten way less than I should for a long time, and I've taken a lot of harsh words, tough love and general meanness for it. So be it. I never asked anyone to follow my nutrition plan. I do what makes me feel good and when it doesn't feel good anymore I change it.

Anyway, the past couple of years have been hard. I went through the illness and loss of a beloved pet, the loss of my father in law, the loss of my mother, the loss of my family due to a stupid fight. Since losing my mother everything is different, everything has changed. I just don't seem to care about too much anymore other than my family, my pets and my health/nutrition. Some good change and some bad change. My sister recently got really sick and was in the hospital, I was so worried, but she's getting there and has a disease that she'll be able to manage at least. I'm still obsessed with nutrition and exercise although working out so much doesn't make me totally happy any longer... sometimes it aggravates me. My husband had surgery, it was successful but jeez... what a time. We got a new puppy the other day he was attacked by a mean dog. He is OK but got hurt and needed minor surgery.

I've managed to maintain my goal weight within a few pounds up/down and that's ok. But I've decided I want to hit my rock bottom weight again. I did this challenge over a year ago and was hugely successful. I know I can't maintain the challenge weight for more than a day or two but I know I can hit it, as I've done it before. So there... I made the statement, now I don't have a choice but to go after it.

Thanks for reading.