Motivation is tough

adam_g85

hey there everyone. My name is Adam. Just wanted to post something a bit about myself to hopefully get some things off my chest.

All through my younger days I was a skinny little kid. Constantly got picked on and beat up. I even had teachers that hated me haha. I had a kid spit in my face once and the teacher said I probably deserved it lol.
I was 54kg/119lbs when I left school. For the next 10 years I did the best I could to train and get results and the only weight I gained was 5kg/11lbs. All I did was listened to the piss poor advice that people gave me which doesn't work. So I decided to learn for myself. I became a personal trainer. In less than a year I gained another 10kg/22lbs. Big difference right?
I was now approx 70kg of muscle. Next I went through a stupid phase that everyone in the gym was going through. Illegal things that build muscle. I myself tried pro hormones. Guess what? It worked. In a matter of 8 weeks I was now 78kg/171lbs.
What did I learn from that? I now know what works and what doesn't work, I also know some of the issues that come along with that stuff.
Where am I at now. I'm no longer a full time personal trainer because that's not my scene. I got into it to help people but everyone in the gym is just money hungry. They will tell you the wrong things just to make money. Sounds like a car salesman.
So not too long later I had some relationship issues which led me down the road of depression and I struggled to even get out of bed.
A couple weeks ago I jumped on the scales and I had dropped down to 68kg/150lbs. Alarm bells started going off and I don't want to be back at the point when I was in high school.

I'm now 30 years old with a beautiful 10week old little girl named Charli. She is my world and I love her to bits. I'm wanting to get my size back but this time I'm doing it the old fashion way. Train hard and eat right. So far it's been a week and I have gained 1kg/2lbs.
I just don't want to give up.