Not so new, but new to this.

khagerman1022

So i am Kalan. Been dieting towards my goal since may2015. So about 5 months. For the most part i have been doing well (down 55lbs), but i am having a hard time staying motivated and also my self esteem is taking a BIG hit. I was married May 30th. My wife loved me big, but i got smaller. She loves me now just as much, but my body looks so different and uneven, i feel gross all the time. Bow chicka bow wow time has decreased a bit, but i just feel gross. Like if i move wrong or lay wrong a skin flap will knock her out or she will roll over and oinch my skin fat between her and the bed. I cant ralk to her beacuse she thinks im crazy because everything i think she said never crossed her mind, but she is also a giant fat weight of 130lbs at 5'7, so she doesnt kow the struggle.

Also i had to buy smaller spanx because i felt my skin took up to much soace, like im a giant water bed now, and i guess i just need ither needy dorky weirdos to keep on, or bounce fears of off.

So, halloween loven, musical singing, time burton admiring lady seeks someone to smack the fat food out of myhand and tell me to keep going, and i promise to do the same