I really cannot believe it

2307dee

Three years ago I made the decision to create a happier, healthier me. Fluctuating between 90kg and 98kg I was miserable, but made a solid commitment to myself to make a positive change. In the first year I managed to lose 13kg although looking back I don't believe my heart was really in it. Then I discovered My Fitness Pal, and so began the real beginning of my journey. At 85kg I began to log everything I ate and all my exercise, and found that being accountable really made me extra conscious of what I put in my mouth. I was astounded and horrified to discover the nutritional content of some of the things I was eating, and MFP has thankfully opened my eyes. Two years later I have lost another 31kg bringing my total weight loss to 44kg. I currently hover around 54kg and haven't felt this good in almost 20 years.

There are so many things I cannot believe. The journey itself has certainly had its ups and downs but I have come to realise that if I do fall off the wagon, I just have to get back on. Simple as that. Nobody can do this for me, only I can help myself. I cannot believe that I'm able to walk into a shop and buy anything off the rack that takes my fancy. And it will probably look OK. I cannot believe that every morning when I get dressed it is a pleasure, not a nightmare, and I find myself actually caring about the way I present myself, which hasn't happened in such a very long time. I cannot believe how easy everyday tasks are when you weigh almost half your body weight, and I also struggle to understand how I really didn't see myself as obese.

However the one thing I cannot believe is that people I haven't seen in even a few months are astounded at how I look now, because I am still learning to look at myself differently. It's sometimes hard to see the new me in the mirror because some days all I see is big. But I'm getting there. It's definitely been a very long road but one I am so proud to have walked, and only now can I begin to be proud of the determined, confident and happy person I've always wanted to be.

gawworthington

Congrats on your journey. I still see the same size me- until I look at photographs. I don't feel very different although I have lost 60 lbs since April. I think Body Image is very hard to change!

2307dee

Keep those photos handy. They are a wonderful reminder of how far you've come and provide reinforcement when you think you can't do this anymore. You should be so proud of all you've achieved xx

MargueriteMuguet

Wow, congrats on the long journey! You did amazing and I can relate to feeling a bit lost as well as feeling so good for having made it this far :-)

rebeccaEsmith

Congrats

lapierrecyclist

Wonderful story. I'm really focusing on consistent logging (of both food and exercise) this time as well. Thanks for sharing and congratulations on your great results -- you worked hard for it!

2307dee

I recently found a photo taken a few years ago that provides a tonne of inspiration when I'm feeling sluggish. And the other is me today. Save some to your phone and take a peek when things get too hard. It may just save you from doing something you'll regret xx

IILikeToMoveItMoveIt

Wonderful!