on a downer whilst bulking (female)

diyadiamonds

So I'm 4 weeks into my bulk ( up 3 pounds) although I'm aware some of it is muscle I can't help but notice my bigger love handles/ bingo wings! this will be my first bulk and cut, so currently I have No muscle definition (this is the main thing I'm really self conscious of) I am aiming to bulk for another 8/12 weeks and then start cutting.

How do u ladies stop yourself from talking down on yourself? I tend to have alot of negative thoughts about my body, I'm used to being quite skinny so I am way out of my comfort zone even putting a few pounds on. Although I know cutting will be quite intense I really can't wait to see definition!