Working out what I want

joyouswiggle

After a blow-out holiday, I returned home 8lbs heavier than my "normal" weight.

I've just about got rid of the excess now, and am back to normal, feeling healthier for having eaten better. But I don't feel super-healthy, or super-thin - because I'm not. I feel like I'm at a bit of a crossroads - one "goal" down, but what is the next one? I find I constantly lose focus on eating healthy and taking reglar exercise - because I'm motivated by wanting to look good way more than wanting to protect my health. And the desire to look good waxes and wanes with time. I wish I wasn't so shallow, and I guess if I'm going to stay healthy I need to work out what else motivates me... Anyone else experience similar or have any tips?