Is it over?

treehopper1987

I have been with my husband for 12 1/2 years now. We met when were in high school and married a few years ago. We now have a 19 month old.

I don't feel like he loves me anymore or even cares about me. We have heated fights on regular basis and I don't want to fight in front of my son. Our fights revolve around the same things over and over again. I feel like he doesn't listen, or he says or does things to change for a week or two and then we are back to square one. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of feeling like crap because of this situation. I honestly don't know what to do. I'm tired of the fights because he always makes the decisions of what we're doing on the holidays, and his side of the family is always a priority. He never sticks up for me for anything. If his family wants something against my will, his family will win. His family doesn't even care to get to know me (yes, I've been around them a lot in the last 12 1/2 years).

I'm scared of disrupting my son's life. It would probably be me leaving because I don't think I could support my son and I on my income. His father has a stable and a lot better income than I do.

What do I do? What would you do?

fiddletime

I'd go to marriage counseling. Having a toddler can be very stressful and the holidays can be too. It sounds like you both would benefit from counseling.

RodaRose

Go to counseling for yourself. Make an appointment soon.
You could use some support for this stressful time of year.
Hire someone to come in and clean your place once a week or every two weeks so that you have more time for yourself.
Make sure that you are getting enough sleep.