Failed four times, back again.

HakumeiRyu

Hey,
My name is Inara. I have done this before but since I have failed and had to start over, I thought that I would reintroduce myself. I currently weigh 292 and was just diagnosed with diabetes even though I am twenty five. Guess that beast stops for no one.

I have had four different profiles on here but this is my heaviest yet. I always wimp out after a few months because I have a major weakness, a flaw. I can't see progress in myself. No effort is ever good enough when you hate yourself. This attempt is different though. It might seem odd but I am not losing it for myself this time. I am losing it for my fiance. Not because he wants me to or is pressuring me, but because I don't want him to have to bury me in a few years. I don't want him to look back at our wedding pictures and see a cow in a dress.

I know I won't reach my goal by wedding time but if I could even lose a few dress sizes...well that would be a visual step in the right direction.