Need motivation/ depression and health issues

danie17075

Hi everyone. I am 36 and basically I have struggled with weight my whole life. I have around 70 lbs to lose. I generally eat pretty healthy, but lately I have shoved pretty much anything I see in my mouth. I have hypothyroidism and had my thyroid removed so it's harder for me to lose weight. I suffer from a lot of medical and autoimmune issues including fibromyalgia, vitamin defeciencies, lichen planus, chostrochonsritis, agoraphobia, panic disorder, and I guess depression. I can't work and have applied for disability 5 years ago. Once my thyroid went bad I suffered from constant panic attacks and all the other health issues. I have been denied all this time, but am still hoping it goes through. It's depressing because I used to have such high motivation. Now I feel like I'm stuck sick and helpless. I live with my mom and my son (he keeps me going). And my fiancee lives upstairs. He also suffers from Panic. Recently his ex called me fat and he does too if he gets mad at me. The more depressed I get about my weight the more I want to eat. I'm just looking for some friends on here to help motivate me and keep me going. I feel like I have a long road to go and starting seems like climbing a mountain! If anyone can relate or wants to join me in this fight let's try to do it together .