50 and eww!

kickinfatchick2curb

I'm 50 in 5 months, mother of 1, wife of 28 years, and 200 pounds overweight. I lost 90 pounds in my 25th year. went on vacation gained 5 pounds and was so embarrassed :embarassed: I quit. Oh how foolish that girl was. I recently relocated to my homestate about 25 miles from my hometown. I live in an incredibly small town with husband, kidlet and in-laws as neighbors. They are all normal size and don't really have a whole lot of support for me other than to say... EXERCISE, EAT LESS. :devil:
My husband is considerably older than me 18 years and a functioning alcoholic. :drinker: Meaning he gets sloshed each night, in the mornig he is functioning and working. :brokenheart:
My kiddo is a tween and very athletic. :huh: , where did that come from.. but very proud just the same.
I went to the dr and he put me on a lo-cal diet where I promptly gained 15 pounds and was VERY :explode: VERY cranky, headachy :sick: and unpleasant to be around. While on vacation I said the hell with it (oh maybe vacations are bad for me) and started eating again.
I'm so ready to kick the fat chick in me to the curb and find myself again and hopefully my pride and self respect and self love along the way.
:flowerforyou: anyone in the same boat with me???
Bef