Carboholics Anonymous

mrajon12

I wanted to start this thread because I wanted to know if anyone else out there is able to relate to my dilemma.

I was doing so good. I was loosing weight at a steady rate. Detoxing, eating whole/raw foods, some lean protein, some fats, some nuts, etc. I would be able to avoid refined sugars and other carbs like rice, bread and pasta just fine.

But when I see an amazing rice dish or pasta dish, I can't help myself. I just let myself go, thinking "I almost never have the opportunity to eat this" or "mom only makes this only once or twice a year". I eat. I then feel like absolute crap.

The worst part is, I will continue to binge on carb rich food for the rest of that day, thinking, "I've already f*cked today up, might as well just eat whatever I want for the rest of today and start fresh tomorrow".

I call that a relapse.
And it sets me back so much. I don't realize it until the next day. It slows my metabolism again. It hijacks my caloric intake:burn for the week.

It's been going on and off like this for 3 months now. I never crave actual sweets. I never have the desire to eat chocolate, have a sour patch candy, blended Frappuccinos or even Lattés.

I see myself craving savory carbs. My stomach doesn't want it at all. My tastebuds WANT the flavor molecules to bounce around and linger. It's so weired. And I feel so weird typing this up. I know I'm not depriving my body of carbs because I eat plenty of fruit, which my body is able to use more efficiently compared to starches. I'm not a gym goer, but I'm not a couch potato either. Most of my job is standing, and I am a student who goes to school 4 times a week with a lot to walking from building to building for classes. Based off of my activity level, I don't need such a large portion of my calories coming from carbs. So I eat fruit for energy instead. I have protein and fat from things like eggs, nuts and chicken, which keep me feeling full.

This is my 5th relapse over the course of 3 months. I need this to stop. Carbs can be addicting. I want to treat starches and refined sugar as drugs. I don't need it in my life. At least, for right now.

I've seen tests done on the brain to show brainwave activity for a person using narcotics alongside a person eating sugar. The same endorphins are released and same parts of the brain show activity. It opened my eyes.

Who else is with me.