Hi Im Becks and Im failing big time :(

Beckyharms43

Hi Im Becks ive been a member here off and on for about 3 years. Ive never used a forum before but Im really struggling so I thought Id give it a go. Over the last 3 months ive gained weight stopped exercising and im addicted to crap. I keep trying to break the cycle but I keep failing. I sufffer with bulimia so when I binge I make myself sick however Im also trying to break that cycle which means do not throw up so subsiquently Ive put on wieght. Any words of encouragement and support and advise would be really really really appreciated.
Thank you al in advance

osto1971

Hi,

I am Dan and I am new here. I have been a member here for a while but never used the app. 3 year ago I was down to 238 pounds then my morther passed away and I started a new jjob and the cycle begaaaan all over for me. I once weighed 290 plus pounds at 5' 10" but it was easy for me to cover up because I am atheletic. This past December I once again said enough is enough and start logging my food again, at this point I was 279 pounds and everything hurt. My best advice to you is to press onward find you groove and stay with it. I struggle with craving crap food and also binge when I have even a small taste, then the regret comes and I binge more. You are not alone even when yoou feel you are. please feel free to use me as a sounding board when you need it. Stay Strong and press forward.

kbmnurse

Hmm, have you had any professional help?

Beckyharms43

hi dan yes please it would be great to use you as a sounding board. ive just been back to the gym. ive not been for 5 months. i used to train 6 times a week and was really fit . but my son who is disabled and suffers with periods of severe illnes was ill again and i struggled to get out and got into a rut and the cyc,le began again just like it did for you. ANyways i went back to boxing 3 weeks ago and i struggled so I wanted to get fit again because I love it. So ive just been back to the gym and ive gained 2 stone 4 pounds in 5 months !!!!!!! hideous. and im addicted to crap and sugar again. its like a drug for me. im gonna measure myself tomorrow i couldnt face it tonight. and ive logged eveyhing ive eaten today and its been a shock i thought it was high but its through the roof. but thats eating crap and binging. and ive had professional help for the bullimia. hence the not throwing up to break the cycle. how do I add you as a friend on here dan ?

Beckyharms43

Hi KBMburse yeah ive had professional help. x

mommabee2016

Never give up, there are roadblocks in the road, but always remember to start again, and again, until you get it right. I went back to the gym and start really taking a good look at my food. I eat slower that helps. I did a food log that really helps. It makes me accountable and see what I am doing wrong.

elishahargreaves5

Hey.. honestly ur not alone. I've used this app before and lost abit then put it all back on. And now have recently decided to give it another go. It's really hard but u have to try and stay strong believe me it's really hard and ull proberbly want to give up but just remember why ur doing this and what your goal is at the end and hopefully that can help push u in the right direction ☺ if u want to talk u can message me ☺

Beckyharms43

Thanks for the support ladies its really helping, Ive behaved today but I sooo wanna eat high sugar foods but so far Ive managed not to binge yet, .. worried about later though evenings are the tough times for me. I love your profile pic mommabee its awesome. and elisha you look really trim so fingers crossed I may end up getting where you are once day this year , and yes I will take you up on your offer of talking to you elisha thats really kind xx

h_ault

Hey Becky,
You only fail IF YOU QUIT! Trying is that trying! Making a conscious descision to make a change! Please add me I am and off and now on again too...NEVER GIVE UP!

sanfromny

Beckyharms43

thanks ladies and gents youve no idea how much difference this has made. Ive managed my first days in 5 months where I havent failed and its all down to the support on here. I massive massive thank you xx

Suzanne106

It sounds like you need to see a nutritionist/dietitian or perhaps a shrink.

sanfromny

Beckyharms43 wrote: »

thanks ladies and gents youve no idea how much difference this has made. Ive managed my first days in 5 months where I havent failed and its all down to the support on here. I massive massive thank you xx

That's fantastic to hear!! Good work!!

laurachandler2016

Are you seeing a professional about this issue? I honestly do think that this is the right place to get the help that you need. The majority of the people on this sight are not medical or counseling professionals that specalize in eatting disorders. However, there are support groups for eatting disorders online.

sarahspenceee

Try some guided meditation you can find some on YouTube. Sounds like the source of your binging is emotional. I went through this last year and mediation really helped bring down my roadblocks with food and binging.

Beckyharms43

sanfromny wrote: »

Beckyharms43 wrote: »

thanks ladies and gents youve no idea how much difference this has made. Ive managed my first days in 5 months where I havent failed and its all down to the support on here. I massive massive thank you xx

That's fantastic to hear!! Good work!!

sanfromny wrote: »

Beckyharms43 wrote: »

thanks ladies and gents youve no idea how much difference this has made. Ive managed my first days in 5 months where I havent failed and its all down to the support on here. I massive massive thank you xx

That's fantastic to hear!! Good work!!

Thanks Hun but I failed last night I went just over 2000 calories and todays noy much better Ive only got 150 calories left from my 1200 but i went out for lunch and had a jacket potatoe. im going to the gym later on so I will try to only have a small diner

Beckyharms43

My bullimia is emtional. Iv e got PTSD from a very awful childhood my father and his friends had very unatural interests in children if you get my drift. Ive had specialist therapu for 3 years and its made a massive difference and changed my life but sadly the bullimia is the last thing I need to conquer but its proving extremely difficult thats why I thought I try a forum to see if that helps and it has really helped so far with all the positive reinforcement Im receiving. I would try meditation but sadly this results in sever flashbacks which can make my symptoms worse so I use the midnfullness techniques Ive been taught. Which so help but it does and is getting the better of me at the moment.

I failed yesterday I failed to stick to my 1200 calories a day and ate 2149 so just over 2000. and today Ive already eaten 1050 becuase ive been out for lunch and had a jacket potatoe and a couple of biscuits with my coffee. So ive only got 150 calories left for the rest of the day, But im going to the gym so I will just work my butt off and have a very small diner and hopefully suceed today

Beckyharms43

Thanks for all the kindness thats been shown to me on this forum its really really helped xx

kelseykmacdonald

If you need some healthy recipes that actually taste delicious let me know! Best way to eat better is to make it taste better. I was super stuck on eating nasty food a while ago and I decided to try something else out. I did a whole week with no refined sugars, processed foods or alcohol. It was super hard and I got pretty intense cravings but honestly I could feel the difference by the third day in and it made me want to keep going. You just have to push until you feel the difference and then that's it's own motivation. I kept thinking "if I feel this good after a week imagine how good I'll feel after a month... A year!"
Keep it up

sanfromny

Beckyharms43 wrote: »

My bullimia is emtional. Iv e got PTSD from a very awful childhood my father and his friends had very unatural interests in children if you get my drift. Ive had specialist therapu for 3 years and its made a massive difference and changed my life but sadly the bullimia is the last thing I need to conquer but its proving extremely difficult thats why I thought I try a forum to see if that helps and it has really helped so far with all the positive reinforcement Im receiving. I would try meditation but sadly this results in sever flashbacks which can make my symptoms worse so I use the midnfullness techniques Ive been taught. Which so help but it does and is getting the better of me at the moment.

I failed yesterday I failed to stick to my 1200 calories a day and ate 2149 so just over 2000. and today Ive already eaten 1050 becuase ive been out for lunch and had a jacket potatoe and a couple of biscuits with my coffee. So ive only got 150 calories left for the rest of the day, But im going to the gym so I will just work my butt off and have a very small diner and hopefully suceed today

You still have time to swing it back in your favor. Get a good workout on. Maybe have a smoothie? Call it a night

sanfromny

Beckyharms43

well today is a disaster. i did go to the gym and i didnt eat anything else and i worked super hard but when i got home. my sons carer had forgotten to give him diner !!!!!!! my youngest son josh is severly disabled and has one t one carers. this particular carer had done a couple of things which i felt where incompetitant but i thought id carry on to see if he improved. he has been looking after josh one day a week after school for about three months and for the firsty 6 weeks i stayed at home while he was here but then i started to go out to uni and now training and things have started to slide. and when he told me this well i was very upset. i told him not to worry and dont let it happen again but im going to let him go. but then i started eating. ive stopped and i managed to regulate it to a degree but sadly i didnt manage to stop it.