Need some inspiring and motivating words thrown my way!

Charloo1990
Charloo1990 Posts: 619 Member
in Motivation and Support
Hey ya'll

I don't know where to start really but i've been using MFP easily about 3 years now and i've seriosuly ruined all my hard work this year. My ticker has gone from 20something lbs lost to 3lbs which even then it's technically 0lbs lost cause i need to re set it.

I struggled with an eating disorder for nearly 4 years and luckily now as of since arounf Feb this year, i have some how fully come out of it. When i had the ED i was eating anything from 0cals-800 a day. 300-500 a day on average plus exercise. Looking back i honestly don't know how i did it. I went from 175lbs to 124lbs in a matter of about 7 months when the ED first ever started. My mind was screwed with wanting to see ribs, thigh gaps, having control and aiming to be as thin as posible but after the xmas just gone it's like something just changed in me. It's like a flick of a switch just happened just like when i first developed an ED. Although i've gained a lot, i'm a much happier person for not starving myself.

Thing is though, i literally have been eating around 2000cals-4000 a day and i've gone from 140lbs (Xmas just gone) to 160lbs =/ That's 20lbs in 6months and no matter how hard i try i just keep failing. I will never ever in my life go back to starving again, i chose happiness but i do want to feel healthy again not to mention i go on holiday in 10 weeks and would love to be back at 140lbs. My UGW is 133lbs and as im doing it the sensible way i don't mind if it takes a while to come off. I guess really i just need a ,massive kick up the backside and maybe some success stories or anything to inspire/motivate me. I wanna get back on the healthy band wagon so bad and just get back to feeling normal and not sluggish all the time.

Thanks in advance if anyone replies to this. xx

Replies

  • Charloo1990
    Charloo1990 Posts: 619 Member
    No one? ok lol
  • 9jenn9
    9jenn9 Posts: 309 Member
    My advice: If you really want to make a healthy change, put the scale away and focus on the process, not the numbers (and please don't try to dump a bunch of weight to get ready for your vacation)! I've been up and down on the weight roller coaster and at times have completely lost my peace of mind. In the past several months, I've been losing s-l-o-w-l-y (about .5 a week). I have to constantly remind myself not to be impatient, to do it right, so that I never have to re-lose the same weight again. It's a constant mental battle. You can do it! Put your scale away. Focus on eating good food, enough of it not to be hungry. Do activities you enjoy. Log what you eat and do, but try not to be obsessive about it. You'll get there!
  • Charloo1990
    Charloo1990 Posts: 619 Member
    My advice: If you really want to make a healthy change, put the scale away and focus on the process, not the numbers (and please don't try to dump a bunch of weight to get ready for your vacation)! I've been up and down on the weight roller coaster and at times have completely lost my peace of mind. In the past several months, I've been losing s-l-o-w-l-y (about .5 a week). I have to constantly remind myself not to be impatient, to do it right, so that I never have to re-lose the same weight again. It's a constant mental battle. You can do it! Put your scale away. Focus on eating good food, enough of it not to be hungry. Do activities you enjoy. Log what you eat and do, but try not to be obsessive about it. You'll get there!
    Thanks for the reply, really appreciate it. Definatly will take that advice on board. I'm done with being obsessive though, just aiming to be happy and healthy :smile:
  • hzliiz
    hzliiz Posts: 166 Member
    I've been through pretty much the same stuff only you got to the "better happy than starving"'epiphany way younger than I did so good for you on that. It really is possible to make peace with your body and its adamant insistence on being fed :smile: Hang in there -- use your food diary, eat food that nourishes your body that you enjoy. And have faith -- it's a bit of a leap of faith to trust that in time, slowly, your body can relearn how to use food and that you can relearn how to listen to your body and give it what it needs. It's hard b/c you don't see the positive outcome immediately after you choose that healthier meal or you log it, there's no immediate response telling you it's the right thing -- it takes time. Listen to the people who are preaching the long and slow haul, tune out anything that smacks of being so easy or quick that it makes your common sense radar go off, and don't give up.

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