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KeepingUpWithKari

I was asked today why I'm on this journey. It made me think...

I'm a mom to one 5 year old boy and currently juggling a home, a family, this journey, and work.

I saw MFP back in 2012 while I was looking for a calorie counter in the Android App Store. I lost 30 pounds that Spring. Since then I started working full time and have successfully completed a few semesters.

I've gained that weight back and 30 more on top. Am I mad? I was. But I've realized why I can't seem to get back on the groove. I was depressed. Who wouldn't be? I dropped out of college to help pay bills, several times. Knowing that college is the way out. I was physically abused and kept a secret for 3 years. Still working on that relationship for my child. He still tries to control what I do, who I talk to, and my educational goals.

My goals are to lose a 110 pounds. I may readjust as I go because I don't want to focus on a number on the scale. I want to learn and adapt a fit, athletic, and healthy lifestyle. Aside from vanity reasons, my career choice will need me to be fit. My educational goals are to receive my associate's degree in criminal justice so I can qualify for Police Academy. Let's face it there are some fat cops, but I want to do my very best.

My depression and abuse have taught me to be strong. Because this is just today. I'm a beautiful, smart, sassy and worth the fight for a happier tomorrow.

These are my demons that have held me back.

Sorry for the Rant. I want to exhale and get it off of my chest.

chaney3000

Good deal. Air that out. First step to defeating a demon is to acknowledge they exist.

Seems like you are on the right track. So keep the faith and endurance to achieve whatever goal you set for yourself

KeepingUpWithKari

^^ Thank you. I'm working on me.

ClubSilencio

I'm glad you shared that. I wish you the best in all your endeavors.

KeepingUpWithKari

ClubSilencio wrote: »

I'm glad you shared that. I wish you the best in all your endeavors.

Thank you and Thank you for reading!

whmscll

Getting into the police academy is hard! You go, girl. We need more female cops.

Be_Lively

I relate to you in a few ways. Stay strong. And you took a big step by admitting the depression. You can do it! Good luck on your weight loss and on your education.

KayTeeOne

Get out of that bad relationship asap . I'm worried for you .
Sometimes I also feel like that . You can add me if you want to talk

KeepingUpWithKari

Thank you everyone. Life is a learning process for sure. I'm glad that I've learned what I have about myself.