Need to shut up my whiny inner child tonight

jodielariviere66

So, things have been going fairly well since I decided to do whatever it takes (my new mantra) to lose the extra weight that is affecting my health. I've weathered some of the stresses that I used to use to give myself permission to eat as much as I like: sickness; a late-night trip to the hospital with my son; a week off work; and my mom fell and broke her hip. I've stuck to the plan through all that.

Then, tonight, suddenly my inner whiny child is being very vocal! I've got a headache, and all I want to do is eat until it's gone. Instead, I got 100g of pasta, 2 tablespoons of pesto, and 27 grams of ice cream.

Actually, even that 27g of ice cream was enough to make me feel less like 5 instead of 50. What do you all do when you feel somehow that you "deserve" more food? I know I'm not being deprived, but it sure feels that way after years of overeating.

myszka0611

I read somewhere that food isn't the cause of the problem (The hospital visit, your mom's broken hip), so eating food won't solve the problem. That mindset has kept me going a few times when I'd normally say "eff it, I'm having that stupid doughnut because bad XYZ thing happened to me today".

So I don't "deserve" more food, I "deserve" to take care of myself so I can get through it all.

Hope your son and mom are doing better!

jodielariviere66

Ah, yes, that's a good take on it - I deserve to take care of myself. I wish it felt like it - right now it's just my head that agrees with that.

Namaste_Heart11

Your inner child is whiny because she has a need... nurture her with love and compassion, and your outlook will improve as she heals. Food will serve to fuel anger later when you're thinking "Why did I eat that?!?"

jodielariviere66

Good point. I'm not sure what to do to nurture myself, since I've been plugging every hole with food for so long. I'm going to take a painkiller, go to bed and rejoice in not giving in to temptation.