Any other breastfeeding mothers here?

stelloian

I am currently nursing my 4 month old and am trying to lose the squishy lbs without tanking my fragile supply. I started at 5'8" and 170lbs and my goal weight is 145lbs. CW is now 167.

I don't want to slash my food intake too much but I am averaging about 1500 calories today. Macros are about 40 protein 40 fats 20 carbs. I am completely dairy free as well (I am allergic). Started working out light to moderate 4-5 days a week.

I am also supplementing with Lactation blend and mother's milk tea. So far my supply seems to be hanging in there.

What are your caloric intakes? What does your journey look like?

robot_potato

Hi! My little guy is 7 months now. I was at 215 when he was born, 231 was my highest recorded weight ever. I started back with MFP when he was 3.5 months old, I was at 199. I started out eating 2000ish calories, when I hit 185 I dropped to 1850 calories plus some of my exercise calories, am now at 174.8 and will lower by 100 cals if I hit a plateau. 25 pounds down in 15 weeks. I go for an hour+ walk or hike 4-6 days a week and have recently been reacquainted with my barbell, which I use 3x a week.

My goal weight is also 145-150, that is where I look and feel my best. I am an hourglass build and anything below that makes me look skeletal. I am at 45 carbs, 35 fats 20 protein. It's not ideal but it is sustainable for me. The only time my supply had issues was when I tried to lower my carbs so I am keeping them higher for now.

I am not 100% on weighing my foods, nor am I strict about my calorie intake or macros. As I get closer to goal I do tighten up my food measurements and I'll change my macros closer to 40/30/30 after little man turns 1.

Feel free to add me, could always use more friends

mcarson254

I'm a newer mom... My little one is just about to turn 2 months. I am just starting to work on my weight loss journey. I was at my highest weight when I got pregnant (156) and I gained from there with the pregnancy. I am now 10 lbs above where I was pre-pregnancy (166) but my goal is to get down to a healthier weight for me (125-130). I am smaller in height and frame so I am hoping I can thin down and build more muscle strength.

I'm glad to see other breastfeeding mom's as I feel it can be hard to try to think about feeding someone from my body at the same time that I am trying to change my body.

I am worried about my supply and so I have been keeping an eye on it and planning my journey around it. I am planning to eat around 1906 calories a day. I found a website that helps to determine how many calories I should have while breastfeeding.
http://www.freedieting.com/tools/breastfeeding_calorie_calculator.htm

Feel free to friend me!

stelloian

Hi other mommas! Sounds like I am pretty low on my calorie intake. Maybe I will bump it up. I am just winging it so it seems I need to adjust. I started exercising so then the app tells me I need to eat more!
It is a juggling game for sure! I am glad to meet you other moms here. I know my personal goals are secondary to feeding my chunky monkey, but man I want to be super strict and drop it fast! Probably not the best idea.

What keeps you all motivated? For me, if I don't eat well I get migraines and arthritis. I was on the floor in pain for 2 years and I don't want to go back to that ever again.

Also have your abs come back together? I feel like my tummy muscles have disappeared and dispersed haha!

julie_broadhead

My little guy is 5 months old. I am 5'9" and I started my post pregnancy weight loss at 174lb I am currently 167lb. My first weight loss goal is to get back to my pre pregnancy weight of 160. Once I reach that goal, I would like to get down to 150lb. I eat 2240 calories with a 40% fat 25% protein and 35% carb macro ratio. I set my macros around my protein needs. I have toyed around with trying to drop my calories lower but I lost supply when I went too low. I do moderate to high intensity workouts 5-6 days a week.

This video helped me with my diastasis recti.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=EXm5UcVXuEU

Wanting to be strong again keeps me motivated. I also really want to be lighter going into my next pregnancy. I was almost 200lb at the end of this pregnancy. I really want to not get into the 190s when I get pregnant again.

robot_potato

My motivations are many. I do my best to love my body and take good care of it so my children might do the same. My oldest is 11 now and I can see the positive effect of doing this.

My tummy muscles are fully recovered, have been since about 5 months. I'll have to do a major cut before I can see them again, but that won't be happening til little one is done nursing.

mcarson254

I'm just starting to get back into the swing of things so I'm trying to pace myself on everything. I have a tendency to try to jump into it too fast and then end up hurting too much from either my carpal tunnel or loose ligaments in my knees. I have to try and remember why I want to loose weight and get in shape.

I want my son to grow up healthy and active and I want to be able to keep up with him!

stelloian

mcarson254 wrote: »

I'm just starting to get back into the swing of things so I'm trying to pace myself on everything. I have a tendency to try to jump into it too fast and then end up hurting too much from either my carpal tunnel or loose ligaments in my knees. I have to try and remember why I want to loose weight and get in shape.

I want my son to grow up healthy and active and I want to be able to keep up with him!

You sound like me! I am a little bit black and white. Either I'm all in or all out. It is hard right now trying to find more balance. I want to shred! But I have my sweet baby who needs her nourishment. Ayyyy off to go eat some carbs or something.
It is good to hear from you ladies. I have learned to love my body in all it's saggy squishiness. My problem is I went up ten pounds in a week! I have some hormone issues and obviously something is flaring up. I started getting headaches again and arthritis again. So I decided to fight it back this way. I am just praying my supply stays high for my baby girl.
Balancing a medical need with the need to provide for baby is a challenge.

stelloian

pbprincess wrote: »

My motivations are many. I do my best to love my body and take good care of it so my children might do the same. My oldest is 11 now and I can see the positive effect of doing this.

My tummy muscles are fully recovered, have been since about 5 months. I'll have to do a major cut before I can see them again, but that won't be happening til little one is done nursing.

Super good reason! I just started taking my 5 and 3 year olds out to the track with me to do some track workouts. I want them to love being active as they grow up and not sedentary. Lifestyle changes!

stelloian

julie_broadhead wrote: »

My little guy is 5 months old. I am 5'9" and I started my post pregnancy weight loss at 174lb I am currently 167lb. My first weight loss goal is to get back to my pre pregnancy weight of 160. Once I reach that goal, I would like to get down to 150lb. I eat 2240 calories with a 40% fat 25% protein and 35% carb macro ratio. I set my macros around my protein needs. I have toyed around with trying to drop my calories lower but I lost supply when I went too low. I do moderate to high intensity workouts 5-6 days a week.

This video helped me with my diastasis recti.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=EXm5UcVXuEU

Wanting to be strong again keeps me motivated. I also really want to be lighter going into my next pregnancy. I was almost 200lb at the end of this pregnancy. I really want to not get into the 190s when I get pregnant again.

We have super similar structures and goals it sounds. I don't really have a landing weight though because before having babies I was a collegiate athlete at 145lbs of solid muscle. I don't expect to be solid muscle like that again. So my weight goals feel arbitrary now. I figured if I hit 145 I would probably feel pretty good so that is my goal again.
I haven't been below 145 since before high school all while being an athlete so I don't even know if it is possible to go lower. I would feel too small I would think.

sardelsa

Hi. I am breastfeeding my 2 month old, gained 35 lbs during pregnancy, now down 30 lbs with ~5 to go. I am 5'7" eat roughly 2700 (I track very loosely), I am losing very slowly (0.25 lb/week). I lift 3x per week, no cardio (unless you count walking and running after a toddler!). My supply is also very important to me so I am trying not to do too much too fast

corgifever

Hi! Bf mom here of a 4 yr old and a 2 yr old. I'm still bf my 2 yr old and trying to lose the baby belly. 5'6" and 148lbs, I'm looking to lose 18 more pounds to get to what looks good on me. I only bf once or twice a day so I'm just not sure how many calories I should be getting. I'm very active and teach water fitness class 12 times a week in addition to walking a dog for an hour three times a week- but can't seem to get rid of this belly! I think I wouldn't care how much I weighed if I just didn't have this belly. Not sure how to add friends here so I don't have any but would love to! What snacks do you all eat? I can do well with meals but seem to choose the wrong snacks.

stelloian

sardelsa wrote: »

Hi. I am breastfeeding my 2 month old, gained 35 lbs during pregnancy, now down 30 lbs with ~5 to go. I am 5'7" eat roughly 2700 (I track very loosely), I am losing very slowly (0.25 lb/week). I lift 3x per week, no cardio (unless you count walking and running after a toddler!). My supply is also very important to me so I am trying not to do too much too fast

Sounds like you are doing great!

stelloian

corgifever wrote: »

Hi! Bf mom here of a 4 yr old and a 2 yr old. I'm still bf my 2 yr old and trying to lose the baby belly. 5'6" and 148lbs, I'm looking to lose 18 more pounds to get to what looks good on me. I only bf once or twice a day so I'm just not sure how many calories I should be getting. I'm very active and teach water fitness class 12 times a week in addition to walking a dog for an hour three times a week- but can't seem to get rid of this belly! I think I wouldn't care how much I weighed if I just didn't have this belly. Not sure how to add friends here so I don't have any but would love to! What snacks do you all eat? I can do well with meals but seem to choose the wrong snacks.

Wow you are doing a lot of physical activity! I am no professional so I don't really have advice. Just what I am doing. I am only about twelve days in so I dunno if it will be a good routine or not. I have cut my starchy carbs out pretty much completely. The only carbs I get are now from vegetables. So my snacks reflect that. I do loads of baby carrots, cucumbers, and apples for snacks. If I had the self control I would have a tablespoon of almond or cashew butter, but I would easily eat about four tablespoons so I try not to even start!
Most meals are a protein and vegetable. Doing about 3-4 oz of protein each time and 4-6 oz of veggies.

mcarson254

stelloian wrote: »

corgifever wrote: »

Hi! Bf mom here of a 4 yr old and a 2 yr old. I'm still bf my 2 yr old and trying to lose the baby belly. 5'6" and 148lbs, I'm looking to lose 18 more pounds to get to what looks good on me. I only bf once or twice a day so I'm just not sure how many calories I should be getting. I'm very active and teach water fitness class 12 times a week in addition to walking a dog for an hour three times a week- but can't seem to get rid of this belly! I think I wouldn't care how much I weighed if I just didn't have this belly. Not sure how to add friends here so I don't have any but would love to! What snacks do you all eat? I can do well with meals but seem to choose the wrong snacks.

Wow you are doing a lot of physical activity! I am no professional so I don't really have advice. Just what I am doing. I am only about twelve days in so I dunno if it will be a good routine or not. I have cut my starchy carbs out pretty much completely. The only carbs I get are now from vegetables. So my snacks reflect that. I do loads of baby carrots, cucumbers, and apples for snacks. If I had the self control I would have a tablespoon of almond or cashew butter, but I would easily eat about four tablespoons so I try not to even start!
Most meals are a protein and vegetable. Doing about 3-4 oz of protein each time and 4-6 oz of veggies.

So great that you are doing so well with your food/snacks! I'm trying to start working from eating two or three meals to breaking it up into more snacking sessions. I am also trying to make sure that it is veggies and fruit I'm snacking on. Still trying to get out of the habit of eating out or making pre-prepped food.

My husband is a hunter so most of the meat we eat is from deer or elk and I have a hard time trying to think of new recipes to keep me motivated to cook and just end up eating out. Anyone else have that problem?

bbilliethecat

i went on lean cuisine for a week to check out portion sizes . now every sunday i make 5-6 different recipes, box them up, and stash them in the freezer for the weekdays for me, my boyfriend, and my two older kids --- 6-m-o gets veggies, meat, and rice/pasta mush haha . it's cheaper and healthier and kind of surprising - never know what meal i've pulled out . this week there's seafood paella, beef curry, chicken curry, creamy agnolotti, and thai basil mince . all 300-400 calories per container .

in terms of milk supply, i need to eat 1500 calories or less - otherwise i have major OVER-supply (same with my other two) . and now it's even less than that since he's started hitting the solids hard . when he sees a spoon and bowl in my hands, it's pandemonium until he's nice and full haha

stelloian

mcarson254 wrote: »

stelloian wrote: »

corgifever wrote: »

Hi! Bf mom here of a 4 yr old and a 2 yr old. I'm still bf my 2 yr old and trying to lose the baby belly. 5'6" and 148lbs, I'm looking to lose 18 more pounds to get to what looks good on me. I only bf once or twice a day so I'm just not sure how many calories I should be getting. I'm very active and teach water fitness class 12 times a week in addition to walking a dog for an hour three times a week- but can't seem to get rid of this belly! I think I wouldn't care how much I weighed if I just didn't have this belly. Not sure how to add friends here so I don't have any but would love to! What snacks do you all eat? I can do well with meals but seem to choose the wrong snacks.

Wow you are doing a lot of physical activity! I am no professional so I don't really have advice. Just what I am doing. I am only about twelve days in so I dunno if it will be a good routine or not. I have cut my starchy carbs out pretty much completely. The only carbs I get are now from vegetables. So my snacks reflect that. I do loads of baby carrots, cucumbers, and apples for snacks. If I had the self control I would have a tablespoon of almond or cashew butter, but I would easily eat about four tablespoons so I try not to even start!
Most meals are a protein and vegetable. Doing about 3-4 oz of protein each time and 4-6 oz of veggies.

So great that you are doing so well with your food/snacks! I'm trying to start working from eating two or three meals to breaking it up into more snacking sessions. I am also trying to make sure that it is veggies and fruit I'm snacking on. Still trying to get out of the habit of eating out or making pre-prepped food.

My husband is a hunter so most of the meat we eat is from deer or elk and I have a hard time trying to think of new recipes to keep me motivated to cook and just end up eating out. Anyone else have that problem?

YES! I hate red meat and my hubby is doing that ketosis thing and it is constant meat eating. I am all about fish. But the effort to cook meat is ugh!

For me the temptation to eat out is when I am just running out of time. The time it takes to dethaw the chicken or meat or something just makes me make bad choices. Shame : (

But we can do this! The way I think about it is, "back in the day" they didn't have all the luxuries we do. So I should be able to prepare food brought from a store with minimal effort.

Most days that works. Then chick fil a calls my name......

stelloian

bbilliethecat wrote: »

i went on lean cuisine for a week to check out portion sizes . now every sunday i make 5-6 different recipes, box them up, and stash them in the freezer for the weekdays for me, my boyfriend, and my two older kids --- 6-m-o gets veggies, meat, and rice/pasta mush haha . it's cheaper and healthier and kind of surprising - never know what meal i've pulled out . this week there's seafood paella, beef curry, chicken curry, creamy agnolotti, and thai basil mince . all 300-400 calories per container .

in terms of milk supply, i need to eat 1500 calories or less - otherwise i have major OVER-supply (same with my other two) . and now it's even less than that since he's started hitting the solids hard . when he sees a spoon and bowl in my hands, it's pandemonium until he's nice and full haha

Wow look at you! That's great! Meal prep/readiness is so essential if you don't want to slip up and make mistakes. Those sound adventurous and delicious : ) I finally tried making a coconut curry for shrimp. It was to die for! Makes me want to do more Middle eastern food instead of the straightforward protein, veggie, fat combo I have been doing.

How is it going feeding your kiddos these things? It took a lot of tears from our kids to get them to eat new things and healthy things. Everybody got the diet overhaul, not just me!

brilliantwords

Hey, add me if you like! My baby is 12 months old now.

Pre pregnancy I was already an uncomfortable 230 lbs (My highest weight was actually 300 lbs way back in 2008 but lost 100 lbs then). I was 247 postpartum, but Im currently 209 lbs and my goal weight is 175 lbs.

Im still nursing my 12 month old, but am not as worried about supply anymore at this age. When baby was younger though, I couldnt eat below 1800 calories without it affecting my supply. I also found the Mothers Milk tea very helpful.

Currently almost -40 lbs from my postpartum weight, but been stuck for a while now. Im hoping things will shift again once he is weaned because I do find losing weight harder while nursing!

stelloian

brilliantwords wrote: »

Hey, add me if you like! My baby is 12 months old now.

Pre pregnancy I was already an uncomfortable 230 lbs (My highest weight was actually 300 lbs way back in 2008 but lost 100 lbs then). I was 247 postpartum, but Im currently 209 lbs and my goal weight is 175 lbs.

Im still nursing my 12 month old, but am not as worried about supply anymore at this age. When baby was younger though, I couldnt eat below 1800 calories without it affecting my supply. I also found the Mothers Milk tea very helpful.

Currently almost -40 lbs from my postpartum weight, but been stuck for a while now. Im hoping things will shift again once he is weaned because I do find losing weight harder while nursing!

Wowzers! You are rocking this thing. You aren't at your goal but you have had significant fluctuations! Great job already. I know that as I approach 160 going downward, I get a mental block. Kind of like I can't imagine myself less and I kinda freak out. I don't know what it would be like to be in the 150's. It actually scares me!
I feel womanly at around 160, but I have not been healthy there still. I don't know what this body will do or where I will plateau.

I took my kids to the track at the local high school today. We have all been trying to be more active. They usually have some fun, and always want to race! My daughter told me today after we had sat down and opened up my pre packed dinner at the track. She said, "Mommy, you have the BEST ideas."
She was so happy to be outside and moving and eating there. Made me feel so good to pass it on to her : )

brilliantwords

I know exactly what you mean! Thats what happened to me when I hit 199! That was the lowest Id ever been in my life after starting my journey at 300!

The original 100 lb loss took me about a year. As for the fluctuations, I actually maintained that loss for about 6 years, give or take 5 lbs!

The biggest change was the summer before I conceived I had gained 30 lbs in a few months from a medication! But I quit it before conceiving, so thats what had me starting out at 230.

Being at 209 and lower than pre pregnancy again feels great! Im so close to my lowest weight but I fear the mental block that comes with hitting the 100's! Im determined though!!

bbilliethecat

stelloian wrote: »

Wow look at you! That's great! Meal prep/readiness is so essential if you don't want to slip up and make mistakes. Those sound adventurous and delicious : ) I finally tried making a coconut curry for shrimp. It was to die for! Makes me want to do more Middle eastern food instead of the straightforward protein, veggie, fat combo I have been doing.

How is it going feeding your kiddos these things? It took a lot of tears from our kids to get them to eat new things and healthy things. Everybody got the diet overhaul, not just me!

my kids love their curries, so i make sure i always have some in the freezer ready to go . i also cut up vegetables, mix them up, and portion them out so i can bring a bag down and quickly saute, steam, or microwave it . i don't actually put vegetables in the container frozen . that way everyone can choose how much - or little - of vegetables they want . my kids fight over the broccoli so i make sure i have heaps of that on hand too haha . and if they don't feel like a hot meal, they can have a quick sandwich and soup packet . they'll sample ours, but if they don't like it, i don't push it .

weekends, we go nuts and eat freshly cooked meals 0_0 lol

ooh, i'll have to look at middle eastern recipes . sounds awesome for next week . OMG i'm salivating ! hahahaha

alexiamunro

Hey, Im a mom of a 21/2 month old, I am 5" 8.5' and now weigh 182 lbs and my goal weight is 150. So I have a ways to go! To add to all this I am a part time student... I really don't know my macros...Yikes ( actually ashamed to admit that) but I try to stay within 1500 calories daily. I currently do light exercising a few days per week but sometimes that's a huge challenge. I have a serious love affair with bread and would totally like to break up with him but often with my schedule it seems like the quickest thing to do is make a few sandwiches.

stelloian

brilliantwords wrote: »

I know exactly what you mean! Thats what happened to me when I hit 199! That was the lowest Id ever been in my life after starting my journey at 300!

The original 100 lb loss took me about a year. As for the fluctuations, I actually maintained that loss for about 6 years, give or take 5 lbs!

The biggest change was the summer before I conceived I had gained 30 lbs in a few months from a medication! But I quit it before conceiving, so thats what had me starting out at 230.

Being at 209 and lower than pre pregnancy again feels great! Im so close to my lowest weight but I fear the mental block that comes with hitting the 100's! Im determined though!!

You can do iiiiiiit!

stelloian

bbilliethecat wrote: »

stelloian wrote: »

Wow look at you! That's great! Meal prep/readiness is so essential if you don't want to slip up and make mistakes. Those sound adventurous and delicious : ) I finally tried making a coconut curry for shrimp. It was to die for! Makes me want to do more Middle eastern food instead of the straightforward protein, veggie, fat combo I have been doing.

How is it going feeding your kiddos these things? It took a lot of tears from our kids to get them to eat new things and healthy things. Everybody got the diet overhaul, not just me!

my kids love their curries, so i make sure i always have some in the freezer ready to go . i also cut up vegetables, mix them up, and portion them out so i can bring a bag down and quickly saute, steam, or microwave it . i don't actually put vegetables in the container frozen . that way everyone can choose how much - or little - of vegetables they want . my kids fight over the broccoli so i make sure i have heaps of that on hand too haha . and if they don't feel like a hot meal, they can have a quick sandwich and soup packet . they'll sample ours, but if they don't like it, i don't push it .

weekends, we go nuts and eat freshly cooked meals 0_0 lol

ooh, i'll have to look at middle eastern recipes . sounds awesome for next week . OMG i'm salivating ! hahahaha

You sound super prepared! Which is key to survival in this weight loss game. You just gave me an idea- not that it is a good one..... But you made me think of freezing in cube form curry if you ever just want to add it real quick.....

OHMYGOSH I WANT CURRYYYYYYY

stelloian

alexiamunro wrote: »

Hey, Im a mom of a 21/2 month old, I am 5" 8.5' and now weigh 182 lbs and my goal weight is 150. So I have a ways to go! To add to all this I am a part time student... I really don't know my macros...Yikes ( actually ashamed to admit that) but I try to stay within 1500 calories daily. I currently do light exercising a few days per week but sometimes that's a huge challenge. I have a serious love affair with bread and would totally like to break up with him but often with my schedule it seems like the quickest thing to do is make a few sandwiches.

Hey we are neck and neck! Similar body structures and similar weight goals : ) I seemed to have gained a tire around my waist. I look 6 months pregnant because my belly is rounded out like bloat. What are your struggle areas?

stelloian

Guys (mommas)- I have to admit. Today I ate cookies. A lot. And the problem is that they had butter in them and I am allergic. And I KNEW they had butter I just didn't care.

And then my body freaked out and I got a migraine then it shut me down for about an hour. I feel so discouraged because I JUST WANT A COOKIE!!!!

Whenever I fall off the bandwagon of weight loss I have this dumb narrative that "THIS ISN'T FAIR". Such a victim. I am trying to get over it and just accept the frustrations in my body. Otherwise I will never change right?

What is your hangup? What is your negative narrative that coddles you when you get whiny like me?

bbilliethecat

stelloian wrote: »

Guys (mommas)- I have to admit. Today I ate cookies. A lot. And the problem is that they had butter in them and I am allergic. And I KNEW they had butter I just didn't care.

And then my body freaked out and I got a migraine then it shut me down for about an hour. I feel so discouraged because I JUST WANT A COOKIE!!!!

Whenever I fall off the bandwagon of weight loss I have this dumb narrative that "THIS ISN'T FAIR". Such a victim. I am trying to get over it and just accept the frustrations in my body. Otherwise I will never change right?

What is your hangup? What is your negative narrative that coddles you when you get whiny like me?

hey, don't stress, it's just a cookie . and yes, we want to lose weight, but we need to enjoy life too . i wanted a cheeseburger last week . i enjoyed the heck out of every single little bite haha . as long as i'm inside my calories, i'm all good . and if i go nuts and i'm over, tomorrow is another day

i'm not a very negative person . when i have a negative thought, i think to myself, 'i am so awesome . no one can compare' . and then i become awesome lol try it . i used to say, 'you're going to be so awesome', and eventually i did become awesome lol

pingpolarpear

My calories depend, some days I don't even make 1000 other days it's up around 2000!! I try and aim for between 1200 and 1500 though, my supply is fine, he is 6 months old so he has started on solids too.
I'm not too worried because for the first 6 weeks after birth I had zero appetite and it never affected my milk at all! I actually lost 10kg in those 6 weeks, he was still thriving and gaining 200gs a week

have you tried making vegan cookies? or dairy free? you can actually make healthier cookies with oats etc, they are pretty yum

robot_potato

I used to have negative thoughts like that. Like there was some imaginary hurdle i had to get over. I was constantly starting over. You have to learn to accept your setbacks, and not punish yourself for them by restricting your calories the next day (i did this and it was just a mess, mentally and physically). Just move on and try again tomorrow. You will get there.

When i feel bad, or if i have a setback, to the weight bench i go. I discovered that when i lift, i feel like the hulk, like i've gone from normal person to super strong and powerful. It puts me in my happy place and gives me a renewed sense of 'i can do this'.

And it's totally ok to go off track sometimes. If i'm having a bad time I set my calories to maintenance for a week and try to keep within that. Then at least I am not moving backwards.

I don't know if it's growth spurt related or what, but i have weeks where i am just starving and it's taken a lot to control my intake so i'm not gaining. It goes back to normal though, and then i resume where i left off. That's the important thing, not to give up if you have a bad day or week.

Sorry, that turned into a novel.

stelloian

Thanks for your encouragement everyone! It wasn't so much that I ate a cookie, it was just I ate the wrong kind of cookie. I think I just get frustrated that I can't be normal and have things with butter and milk etc. oh well. I just need to go find some kick butt dairy free recipe.