Restarting my journey, looking for friends and motivation.

hanneberries

Hi everyone, my name is Hanne, I'm soon to be 27 years old, and wanting to get my life back in order.

My fitness journey, and struggle, has been lifelong. I've always been the chubby one, which then turned into the fat one, and while I've never been happy about it, I often lied to myself and said I was. Pretending to be alright with my large size in itself was a defence mechanism. If people thought I didn't mind being fat, maybe eventually I would.

But I do mind. I've always minded. And I'm sick and tired of it, and I need to make a change.

My high weight of all time was 225lbs back in 2012, and I am horrified I ever allowed myself to reach that. For a good while in 2013/14 I was very loyal and dedicated to MFP, I dropped down, and the lowest recorded weight I have here was 178lbs. But then, somehow, I allowed myself too much lenience. I got lazy, to be honest and straightforward. My weight crept back to 205lbs. And I know I need to make a change. And this time I need to stick with it, too.

I love the community here. There is so much support, and seeing others achieve their goals, helps keep me on the track to mine, therefor I'm looking for new friends to travel down the road with.

My current stats are:
5'6"
HW:225
CW: 198
EoYGW: 175
UGW: 160

My goal weight may go lower, depending on how I look and feel when I reach there, but for now it seems like a reasonable, and achieveable goal.

My current calorie limit is at 1880, as I work as a server at a restaurant with high volume and pace. (Work days average about 13k-18k steps), but I will generally be trying to keep around 1500, as when I am finished with this job in June and adjust my calorie goal, I don't want to go into personal shock.

Thanks for reading, everyone, I hope we can share this together!