Post-holiday weight gain after losing 10kg

Hi all

I just got back from a month long holiday to find I've put on 4kg.

I lost 12kg nearly 2 years ago, and have since regained 6kg.

I fear getting back to my heaviest weight. It scares me and makes me hugely depressed, and yet if cake is offered I will eat it. And plenty of it.

I'm not as disciplined as I was when I was at my heaviest losing weight. I feel like I don't realise that I'm getting large again. It's like there's a smoke screen distorting my realisation that I am overweight.

When I was overweight I knew it. Now, I'm not at the full realisation that I need to make changes again.

Please help me!