I'm not depressed, I like food!

mbvenske

Before I go into my story , KNOW that I am not making light of those that suffer depression. Depression is not to be taken lightly and is an extremely hard disease to suffer from! And I do urge those that suffer from it to get help if they need it, nothing wrong at all in asking for help!!
That being said, I am 52. I am an emotional eater. I eat a lot, constantly, especially when I visit my younger years, i.e. Go to my moms, my sisters, that kind of thing. About 2 months ago I came home from my sisters, physically sick because of all I ate and none of it was good for me. Checked my blood/sugar level, it was 250ish. Which is high for me and something my doctor told me to watch because I am considered pre-diabetic. I sat in my backyard and asked myself why? Do I do this? I was not abused as a child or as an adult. I consider myself a well-rounded sane type of person I was in an abusive marriage 20 years ago, but have gotten out of it, Remarried a wonderful man, and have two more beautiful children. I decided that night that I eat because I like food. That's it. I like food! I like the crunch I like the salt I like the companionship I like the fact that we're usually visiting when we're eating there is nothing about it that I don't like about it! Especially the socializing. So I decided to take it in hand, and it has not been as hard as I thought it would be once I made my mind up. I have had Mother's Day with my family I have had multiple dinners with my family in the last two months. I have lost 10 pounds just by not excessively eating with my family. And it feels damn good! Sometimes you just have to be ready, and I don't know how to make that time be there for you any faster then it will be. I have struggled my entire life with weight, my highest being 256 pounds, and right now I'm still at 214, but I am going to do this. I motivate myself and make myself walk the extra length of the parking lot, to the stairs at work, all the proverbial things that are supposed to help. But this time around it's not a chore, it's actually enjoyable! So if you have actually read this all the way to the end and you want a motivational person that's not going to do the intensity workouts or run a marathon, but will walk, do the elliptical, verbal support all that you can get, and the occassional kayaking in the summer with her kids, count me in and add me as a friend.