I don't know what I'm asking

DaniettaF

I'm worried that MFP has made me obsess over food too much. I now feel that when I'm under my calorie goal too much, I eat more thinking 'I have diary space for a treat' when I don't necessarily want one, and I feel guilty over eating my limit which is fairly frequently. I have cravings all the time, not made any better when I know I don't have any calories left in the day.

I exercise 2-4 days a week, kickboxing and running. I used to be able to not eat back my calories, but recently I've been too hungry not to. I'm not starving myself or really ever feel hungry, I'm on 1330 calories and try to hit my macros, but most days I over do it on the carbs and under do the protein. That might explain it if I was hungry, but I'm not, it's just a sort of nagging in my head saying 'I bet you fancy a cheese and onion pasty' or 'wouldn't it be nice to eat crisps with lunch today', and then it doesn't leave my head. I usually just try and get over it with a cup of tea, which usually stops me from buying anything but doesn't stop me from thinking about it.

I can't really put my finger on why I've gotten so obsessed with eating or not eating food, it's what I think about most of the time.

My boyfriend doesn't count calories, just exercises and makes healthy decisions when he needs to make them, not in the morning like I do. He has a much healthier mindset, and I'm not sure if sacking of MFP is a good idea?

I didn't lose any weight without MFP, but nor have I tried. I decide to lose weight, and log back in to MFP automatically. It's good for self awareness, but I think I've gone too far in some respects. I don't log at the weekends just because there are too many variables that I get annoyed that it isn't accurate, and I just sort of eat roughly what I think is okay - this is probably also the reason weight loss is slow because I'm eating more calories than I think. This makes me even more guilty when I know I go over during the week.
I work and study, so exercise opportunities aren't that frequent.

I don't really know what I'm asking, I guess I just want some thoughts or advice on my situation.

distinctlybeautiful

The main thing that stood out to me is when you said this ...

DaniettaF wrote: »

I used to be able to not eat back my calories, but recently I've been too hungry not to. I'm not starving myself or really ever feel hungry ...

You say you're too hungry and then in the next sentence say you're not ever hungry. This makes me think you're not really sure what you're feeling.

Have you considered trying it without MFP? This is supposed to be a useful tool, not something that causes anxiety or a preoccupation with food.