Falling Off The Wagon: The "I Love Myself," Edition?

fara180

I keep falling off the wagon! I'll be super dedicated, count my calories and work out for a few weeks...see some results (usually 1-1.5 lbs per week) and then.......PLOP! Off the wagon I go. I go through these high and low points emotionally and mentally...and it seems like i'm only motivated when i'm feeling really bad about myself?

When I'm single and lonely and I feel ugly....I am super motivated to go to the gym and to eat under my calorie goal. That said, whenever I start to build myself back up (by either dating someone and feeling confident/pretty, getting new clothes, telling myself that i look great at any weight, etc.) I start to backslide because I get super comfortable with myself....which SHOULD be a good thing but it's stopping me from being dedicated!

Does this make any sense or do I sound crazy? Basically, what I'm saying is that I am only dedicated and motivated is when I feel bad about myself. When I feel good about myself, I start eating fatty foods and skipping the gym and telling myself that I don't need to lose weight...even though I do.

How can I balance feeling good about myself and accepting myself...while still welcoming and working towards changing my weight/health/appearance?

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