what it means to be morbidly obese

hollyelee

Last night while swimming, I came up with these as a sort of motivation because they are things I do not enjoy having to deal with. Anyone got any of their own or know where I'm coming from?

Here's what it means to be morbidly obese (for me)...

1. Always wondering what other people are thinking. Are they judging me by what I have in my grocery buggy? Like "Oh look at the fat *kitten*. Of course she would have double fudge oreos!"
2. Looking at boutique clothes and knowing that they will never have a size that fits you (currently 2x). So instead of buying cute clothes, you just buy cute accessories.
3. Knowing that yes, you could buy fashionable clothes from Lane Bryant or Torrid; however, you WILL pay way more for them. Have you seen the prices of a pair of jeans from Torrid? Ridiculous.
4. Accepting that you're a T-shirt person when you know you want to be in cute clothes but cute clothes just do not fit you.
5. Knowing the irony behind the fact you are overweight and you collect Barbie Dolls.
6. Wondering if one day your son will be embarrassed by his fat mom or if his friends will be like "His mom is soooooooooooo fat."
7. Knowing that you will always come up with excuses so you do not have to chase your son because by god that would tire you out.
8. Being morbidly obese means extreme feet pain after a walk through Wal-Mart. No lie. Every trip to Wal-Mart on Friday with my mother means feet death. Straight up.
9. Knowing the inside of your thighs will ALWAYS rub together. The inside of my thighs has never seen the light of day.
10. Having to wonder if you're having heart problems because your heart races constantly after walking from the living room to kitchen.
11. Wondering if that chest pain is from eating a double whopper, large fry, and large coke or if you're having for realsie chest pain.
12. When going to college, hoping there is someone fatter than you so you aren't the fattest person in the room.
13. In college, hoping you never have to leave early and hoping you can fit in between the chairs in the room and not hit anyone with your fat *kitten* or require them to scoot up or move their desk.
14. Always going to the men's department for 2x t-shirts.
15. Always being the fat girl with the pretty face.
16. Going to the doctor and having a silent 'Come to Jesus' meeting with the scale before being weighed. It goes like this: "Look, if you will just show that I have not gained anymore weight I SWEAR I will start doing better..."
17. Hoping to every deity there is that you will pass your insurance physical so insurance doesn't go up by about $400.00. On another note, I somehow managed to pass three of the incentives required for our insurance NOT to go up.
I could come up with more, but that should be enough, right?