Feeling depressed but ready to make a change

pxalpha97
pxalpha97 Posts: 8 Member
in Motivation and Support
I had lost almost 20 pounds over a year ago and I've put it all back on plus an extra 10 pounds. I'm embarrassed by the way I look and ashamed that I was once doing so well with my eating habits but have gone back to my old ways. Obesity runs in my family and I want to break the cycle. After stepping on the scale this morning, I can't believe how I've let myself go. When I was in high school and college, I was always between 195-200, now 20+ years later I'm 266. I know I can't get back to my high school/college weight but if I could simply get rid of 51 pounds and maintain a weight of 215, I would be extremely happy and healthy.

I didn't come on here to gain sympathy but I just needed to vent and express my feelings as this is therapeutic for me. Everyday, I will make an effort to monitor the foods and liquids I take in, and I will engage in some form of exercise. When I lost 20 pounds last year, I was walking 2 miles in the morning and 2 in the evening, I need start that again as well as a light weight training routine. I'm tired of being referred to as 'the big guy'. TODAY I WILL TAKE BACK CONTROL OF MY HEALTH. The journey to 215 begins now.

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  • gillie80
    gillie80 Posts: 214 Member
    edited August 2016
    this is the place to vent for sure. I lost 1 stone last year, suffered a loss and was 'gentle' with myself for a few months. that turned into a year and i weighed in heavier than i was before. i know my 'ideal' weight is ridiculous and unachieveable but i've got a goal weight and smaller targets to get me there.

    be proud of yourself for knowing a change is necessary. know you can do it, as youve done it before and you know what to do. youve got this, you can do it.

    log everything you eat and drink, even if it's one marshmallow and youll soon see results. good luck x
  • Trish1c
    Trish1c Posts: 549 Member
    Every journey starts with a single step. Good for you for starting. You have the right plan & you know it's about you having control.

    Do think back to college & think about what you did then and what you are doing now and how they are different. You walked to class. You drive to work. You took the stairs. You take the elevator. At least for me, I had to walk to get to alcohol; now it's in the house or I drive. When I got to the party I danced most of the night. Now I sit & watch. So I decided to act like a college kid again. Even my husband agreed & we now go to places where we can dance rather than just sit there & drink. It's a little thing but as far as I'm concerned added more movement helps.

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