Changing Forever

TheBizzyBee

Hi guys, I'm a 20 year old, 5ft4 and almost 16 and a half stone.

I started uni just two years ago and have another two to go. While attending uni Mon - Fri from 9 - 5 on most days, and working two jobs, one after uni until 7 at night and one on Saturday and Sunday, each with a 8-9 hour shift, I have little time to look after myself. That's what I tell myself. I'm not lazy as you can tell from all of that but I'm reluctant to not eat crap or start exercising - I feel like I deserve to not do it!

As much as I feel like I have the right to not do any of that stuff I feel like now it has just clicked about how stupid it is to think this way. I have a family history of heart attacks and very high blood pressure on one side and a parent with Type 2 weight related diabetes on the other. My mother infact has gone from a size 20 at her heaviest and is now size 12 over the past year or so!

I have gone from being a healthy 14 year old to an obese 20 year old. Six years, struggling to do any sort of moving around, stretch marks and sweating I feel like I need to change. It is FACT that I have to change.

It won't be easy. My father, despite being the over weight (over 23 stone, 5'8'' man) that he is, has cruelly told me from the age of 11 (despite being health and active at that time) that I need to watch my weight. At times I would eat and think, 'Ha! Screw him, I'm getting back at him by eating this.' but that wasn't the case. Food is a comfort and that needs to change.

I'm 20 and my back hurts, my knees hurt. Lord do my feet hurt! I guess I just want to say hi, I want to change for good. Forever. I am studying in the Forensic field and its necessary for me to be healthy in this line of work. Its necessary for me to be healthy for myself.

I'm sorry for going on a bit but I needed to get this out. I want to change for good, I want to get down to at least 10 stone. Of course that's seems like silly talk right now, my short term goal is to lose 1 stone by Christmas. And while that doesn't seem a lot I mean LOSE it. For good. Which I know is different. I was just wondering if anyone else here wants to share tips and help and support while making a change for LIFE like me.

Thanks for reading,
TBB