How to crawl out of the hole?

vborn

So, here I sit. Pledging to lose the weight for the millionth time... Desperate for strength and stamina to get through one day at a time.
I just had my 49 th birthday. I am THANKFUL. I am BLESSED.
I am OBESE.
I have talked to God daily about me funky moods and my inability to get and stay motivated. He still loves me, this I know. But, in this instant gratification mindset I'm bombarded daily with.. TV, FB, ads, I am STRUGGLING to begin. Again.
My blessings are MANY. A WONDERFUL, LOVING, GENEROUS husband, wonderful children, and a cat that thinks "couch potato" lifestyle is just groovy. And yet, depression, self loathing, insomnia, fatigue, impatience are all the gifts that I am able to give back. NOT FAIR. And certainly not deserved by my family or my cat.
Tonight, I found my shovel. I threw my first pile of dirt out of the hole... I walked, I ate healthy today.
I LOVE MY FAMILY
I LOVE GOD
THANKS, goodnight

mishii28

Great job! I hope you can keep digging and find the gift you know you can be to you loved ones

vborn

Thank you

DetroitDarin

booya!

MsAmandaNJ

All you can do is your best one day at a time. If you slip up, there's always another day to dig some more. You CAN do this!

AnabolicMind2011

Good job! You can do this

Just_J_Now

vborn wrote: »

So, here I sit. Pledging to lose the weight for the millionth time... Desperate for strength and stamina to get through one day at a time.
I just had my 49 th birthday. I am THANKFUL. I am BLESSED.
I am OBESE.
I have talked to God daily about me funky moods and my inability to get and stay motivated. He still loves me, this I know. But, in this instant gratification mindset I'm bombarded daily with.. TV, FB, ads, I am STRUGGLING to begin. Again.
My blessings are MANY. A WONDERFUL, LOVING, GENEROUS husband, wonderful children, and a cat that thinks "couch potato" lifestyle is just groovy. And yet, depression, self loathing, insomnia, fatigue, impatience are all the gifts that I am able to give back. NOT FAIR. And certainly not deserved by my family or my cat.
Tonight, I found my shovel. I threw my first pile of dirt out of the hole... I walked, I ate healthy today.
I LOVE MY FAMILY
I LOVE GOD
THANKS, goodnight

Good for you. That's a good mindset. By the way, you don't look obese at all.

Icheatonmywife

One day at a time, down to one meal at a time, your stronger then you give yourself credit for, put your mind to it, and dont let anything get in your way.