Issues with a little weight gain after loss

toriraeh

About a year ago, I was at the tail end of losing a total of 50 pounds. On MFP, I only lost 30 of it, but still. I worked really hard and it was really awesome. Then I started working two jobs, had a back injury (that I still have but found out there's nothing "wrong" with my back, so eff it, I'll just suck it up and deal) that kept me from exercising for several months, moved across the country, bought a house, etc. Life has been nuts and in this process, I put on 10 of the 50 pounds I lost. In the grand scheme of things, this ISN'T a huge deal! I know this! I can lose it, I know how.

But number one, when I look at myself, I feel like I'm 50 pounds heavier than I am. It's bizarre because my brain knows that when I was this weight on the losing end, I felt fantastic! Better than ever! But now, because it's a gain, it's miserable and I'm disgusted with myself. WTH?! Why do I feel this way?

Number two, I've always dealt with kind of mild depression. Just the kind that keeps you from having motivation, and lately it's been manifesting in a desire to eat really yummy things and sit on the couch. I'm trying to work on this. I just started working out again, which is painful but necessary. And started MFP back up about two weeks ago. I'm already down a pound and a half which is awesome and right on track for me.

I guess I just can't get past the feeling of disgust every time I "cheat" now. It didn't used to feel like a big deal. The whole time I was losing those 30 pounds on here, I had one meal a week where I ate what I wanted. I would go out to eat, or go to a friend's party or something and not worry a bit about calories. Didn't feel an ounce of guilt because I knew that I would still lose. Lost a pound a week like clockwork. But now... after a 10 pound gain... I guess I've lost that confidence.

Has anyone else battled these feelings? How did you move past it? How did you stop seeing yourself through the lens of your failures and instead, see your successes?

edup1975

You can do it. Don't let bad days get you down. One day at a time!

cheryldumais

I know what you are going through. All my life I would lose a few pounds on some "diet" and then gain it back. Then I would give up and look for the next great diet. This is the cycle we have been through over and over so we begin to worry that healthy eating will be the same - BUT ITS NOT! Trust me. You will lose it again and feel great again. A ten pound gain while not what you want is not as bad as it may seem. Your metabolism is probably higher and the weight is gonna come right back off. We learn from our mistakes. I took a day off for my birthday this year and am struggling to get back on track but I am determined and you will do it too. Hang in there kiddo. You've been through some stuff and I salute you that you are gettting back on track.