Getting started.....again.

Breenacole

I FEEL LIKE A FAILURE

Now that I have that out there I feel a lot better. It's written. But I'm not a failure. A little about me.

My name is Bre. I am 5'2, 25 years old, divorced mother to a very energetic 6 year old and working toward moving forward with my new boyfriend. My marriage was not the best, and as a result, at the end in 2014, I was at my heaviest at 270 pounds. I was diagnosed in 2015 with Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Depression, Ptsd, and Borderline Personality Disorder. As a result, going out in public, such as to a gym, or even to the grocery, is hard for me. Shortly after that diagnosis I was hospitalized due to unknown internal bleeding. After a year of modified bed rest they have recently decided on a diagnosis of Ulcerative Colitis. I have figured out what causes flareups and avoid it, but that causes issues with calorie intake. I have to push myself to reach 1000 calories a day even. I am working on a nutritionist through my gi doc to see if that will help.

But even through all that, I am now down to....191 pounds!!!!!!!!!!!! I planned to be at my goal by now... but I can't let myself be down about it.

But yeah, that's me! If anyone has any suggestions on ways I can ease into exercises (I have been approved for cardio, but not weight lifting yet because my muscles are still weak), preferably stuff I can do in my living room (and free if I can swing it, all my income goes to school fees for my son until I can work again). And I am always open to recipes. Things I can't have are: milk by itself (if it's mixed in I can have it), raw veggies, any leafy greens, i have to go light on dressings and creamy sauces, spicy foods are supposed to be a No No but I can eat them in moderation, and fried is a no no.

Thanks all, i hope I stick around this time!