Wake up call...

Jmbean84

I was replying to a message this morning and the following is part of what I wrote. After I read over it a couple times, I began to see more clearly what I've been missing for so long. Throughout this whole process of losing weight and quitting smoking and just becoming healthier in general, I have still spent a large part of my days beating myself up and hating myself. Instead of looking at far I've come, all I was doing was dreading how far I still had to go. Now that I can see the problem, maybe I can finally jump over this hurdle and finish what I started. I was so totally motivated in the beginning and I lost that motivation with the weight I gained back over the Holidays. It's time to do this the right way. I'm only looking forward from this point on. The past is the past and there's nothing I can do to change it. I have and will continue to learn from it. I don't know why but I feel like maybe this might help just one person see what I'm just beginning to;

. I had a set back a bit in december with the holidays and just never really got back on track. I was up to 54 lbs lost but now I'm back to only 46. Still a lot, but its been a struggle getting back in the grove. My original end goal was to lose 100 total. From where I am now, I'd still like to lose about another 70. I think if I can do that, I will be extremely happy. I'm very happy I stumbled upon this website back in February of 2012. It really has changed my life in so many ways. I am aware of what I am putting in my mouth now, but I try not to stress about every mess up. I now know that the number on the scale, although it has some meaning, it doesn't tell the whole story. I'm happier and stronger, both physically and mentally. And I am definitely smaller! Lol. Sorry for the speech. I've just recently realized a lot of this and the more I say it, the more I believe it and the more I believe I truly can reach my ultimate goal no matter what obstacles I encounter.