Never give up, even when you are not doing well

kikilieb3

Clearly i have been struggling, i joined MFP January of 2015 and i have not been successful.... Yet. My motto has always been to never give up. Only lost a couple pounds this month instead of ten, that is ok, just do not give up. Can't do the exercise you used to because of an injury, that is ok, just don't give up. Actually gained weight when you were supposed to lose.... Not ok! But do not give up. One year and ten months later, started to lose the weight again... This is why i never give up. I am at my lowest weight for the year as of this morning and i have renewed hope in myself. Let me be clear though, this years "lowest weight" used to be my lifetime highest weight, so i still have a long, long way to go in this "journey", but i am not giving up, especially now, because my faith has been renewed! A little over two years ago i suffered a terrible injury when i was hit by a car while riding my bicycle; and even though i didn't want to, i got very depressed. Also, i hit the back hard (and i mean REALLY hard) on the windshield of her jeep, and even though i had a helmet on and the MRI showed no physical injury, i do believe i suffered some mental disfunctions, over the past couple years i had trouble retaining information, i couldn't sing anymore (of all things, LOL!) and i couldn't cook anymore. I literally had to throw my food in the trash because it tasted like absolute rubbish - I just went to McDonald's a lot (not a healthy option even by a long shot). I WISH i had not gone down this path of depression and destruction; i really thought that, since my life had been spared on the road that day that i would never be depressed. What could possibly be so bad when you get to wake up in the morning and breathe life and kiss your loved ones? What could be so bad about a stupid knee injury when people suffer from terminal illness? So what if you can't run and dance and jump for joy, at least you got that car?!? I wish it had been that easy, i have told myself these things every freaking day since August 23, 2014, and.... Well, every day hasn't been a good day, but i am happy and grateful and just keep trying to be a better me than i was the day before. Last month i started cooking again and the food has been edible, last week my doctor told me i may be able to run again if i lose the weight, last night i danced at our annual Masquerade Ball and i could dance much better than i did last year. Time will heal these wounds, i just need to be patient

MotivatedMenna1

So sorry about your accident. I didn't have an accident but i, as well, suffered from severe depression for several years which led me to staying in bed for weeks at a time. Not wanting to do anything. Not caring and really bad episodes of binge eating. Just starting to feel slightly better and i have about 50 pounds to lose.
I'm not giving up thank you for this post

rsclause

In high school I was in a car accident and hit my head on the side very hard. I didn't seek any treatment mostly because I felt so bad about the people in my car that were hurt. I didn't think I had any trouble other than depression until I went to my typing class. I had no idea where the keys were and the week before I could type without looking. You may have had a concussion at the very least and the effects can can very. Glad you are on the mend and your attitude is great, keep marching forward.