Drop the Pop (soda) + a couple thoughts

kommodevaran

heather240 wrote: »

@kgirlhart they wouldn't do the shots! A script is all they'd give me. I think I suffer from major malabsorption of some sort. I have major bowel issues with "D" for 10+yes. multiple medical problems with my stomach lining and large intestine. I think the drs don't believe my D is as sever as I say because I'm obese!! But BUN levels don't lie and they've been low for years (blood urea nitrogen) its frustrating

@Duchy82 I will request iron again. It was normal when the checked it about a year ago. Ty for calorie explanation. I may try the protein powder. Just afraid of wasting money and not liking it. Goal for next week

@kommodevaran very insightful. I am a chronic overthinker. Spent most of my life thinking about what I was going to do yet not doing it!! Gets you nowhere. Then I beat myself up for not doing what I planned to do. Ugh. Self doubt and insecurity take over.. Yada yada. So I guess it is projection in a way.. I feel like a pig and disgust myself so I assume everyone thinks the same way about me. BUT let's be honest we all have the friends that went to a beach and came home with stories about the whales they saw.. And it wasn't shamu. Or the snickers and looks obese people get if they go to a buffet. Sometimes even fat people at the gym.. And they're trying! People do judge. And I'm an introvert always have been. I even took up photography as a hobby so I'd never be IN the picture.. Lol. It's not really funny.. But its me.
Goal this week
****I will make a personal goal to start eating 3meals even if only a few bites and nasty gross skim milk. I will also walk or something 15-20 min at least 3x this week
Goal next week
****next week I will increase to 1500. Unless I try the protein powder before then. Also increase walking to 30min 3x.. Or 15min 6x
Does that sound reasonable?
Oh and I took dreaded before pics and I'm scared to death to post. My son took them and told me how kids on the bus say I'm fat. I said "I am fat" we laughed really hard. But as soon as he fell asleep I broke down
Sorry so long. Have a great day!

I think those are very good goals! Just keep in mind, you don't have to force down anything - for this to last, you have to like it, or at least not hate it. Your tastebuds will slowly adapt to what you expose them to, so what you hate/can't live without now, can be totally different in just a month.

Some of us are a bit too sensitive, and we tend to think that we stick out like sore thumbs. But in reality, most people are more focused on themselves... just as we are

People who comment on other people's weight - well, they are just rude. It's not acceptable.

I also think a lot of your deficiencies stem from just a lack of real food. We need to keep a steady intake and eat a varied diet to function properly. A treat now and then doesn't negate that, it's just about not letting that treat becaome bigger and bigger and more and more often.

snowflake954

I can understand your sensitivity about being overweight, but everyone has to start somewhere. People that laugh about other people have their own hangups (think kids on the bus), and try to hide them by putting the spotlight on someone else. You want your son to be proud of you---so make hin proud. Show him that you love him enough to change for him, and yourself.

PS: And when going for your walks, think about smiling at the people you see. Then they will just think that you are nice.

heather240

@kommodevaran Are you a 22yr old male or a female born in 1970? Either way can I add you? I like your way of thinking. think cranberry juice and crystal light leave a horrible taste in my mouth all day. But I had a hard time with the skim milk!
I think you're right about the deficiencies.. But I also have horrible stomach reactions to food. May also contribute to some of it

heather240

@snowflake954 that is very true. He doesn't understand why they say it. Some people just don't raise kids to be respectful of peoples differences. My lil guy holds the door for people and helps older people load groceries in a parking lot. So I'm very proud of him
Can I give them a smirk? Lol. I don't smile often because I don't like my spaced teeth.

kommodevaran

heather240 wrote: »

@kommodevaran Are you a 22yr old male or a female born in 1970? Either way can I add you? I like your way of thinking. think cranberry juice and crystal light leave a horrible taste in my mouth all day. But I had a hard time with the skim milk!
I think you're right about the deficiencies.. But I also have horrible stomach reactions to food. May also contribute to some of it

I AM a 46 year old woman - the profile "lies" because I sometimes "simulate" others' calorie goals in setup (people asking for help in the forum) and I don't bother to change it back - that's why I wrote my age/gender in the profile (maybe I should state explicitly that the conflicting "info" must be ignored ) Yes, you can add me, but I'm not active outside the forum.

I have some theories about your reactions to certain foods too. Real food is harder to digest than "junk food", which is practically predigested. That's part of the reason why it's so easy to eat too much of it. If your system isn't used to "working" on your food, you need to let it get used to it. So baby steps. Maybe cut/blend/cook as much as you can - you don't have to eat a pound of raw broccoli the first week

How about 2% or whole milk? You can make hot cocoa if you aren't too fond of the taste. Cocoa is filled with antioxidants.

heather240

Ok. Ty.
Ugh I do cook a lot. This has been an ongoing issue for over 10years. No Chrons colitis or celiac. So I'm baffled. I'm probably not buying the skim milk again after this. Ironically my son didn't even notice it was skim and he drinks whole milk regularly! Cocoa sounds good. I need sleep. Its almost 6am. 4 days of insomnia.. Wish I felt this awake during daylight hours

ShammersPink

There's nothing wrong with whole milk in moderation. I use it for my breakfast cereal. I could manage skim when it is mixed with enough other things to disguise the thin texture, but I don't really use enough of it to be an issue. I keep some skim powder to use in mixes.

Sometimes, it's a case of trying something a few times before you get used to the difference from what you are accustomed to, but you don't need to eat anything you genuinely dislike. While you are losing weight, your intake is pretty restrictive - make sure it's made up of things you like, just less of them. Otherwise you are more likely to give up.

You can smile at people without it being an open-mouthed grin. Does it get cold in winter where you live? If you're wearing a coat, your shape will be concealed, at least to some extent, if you're feeling self-conscious about walking.

There's no need to post "before" pics unless you want to. You've taken them for yourself. I hate photos of me, and stick behind the lens for the same reason - I'm not really a flower beetle.

Ming1951

I am not much of a milk drinker. I only buy fat free, its healthier for my household, none of us need the added fat. You actually get use to it, but as others have pointed out your taste buds will change. In the mornings now I have black coffee with a packet of stevia. Then water water and more water until I have all 64 oz in. LOL After that I don't have room for any further drinks. I now eat 3 meals a day plus snack. Mostly my snacks consist of fresh fruit like halo tangerines, which are in season now, and raw carrots. And while your changing your meals and weighing and logging keep in mind this is a healthier eating style for your son also. I made mistakes when mine were small and would grab McDonalds as a fast meal after school etc. but that gave them bad habits too. You will do this as it sounds like you have made your mind up. And by the way I basically had to stay housebound except for my walks for about two weeks while I got control of my eating. Now I'm good and no longer tempted. In fact a neighbor brought over some cake the other day, never even poked my finger in it. LOL.

heather240

@ShammersPink I think I'm going to buy whole until I get something healthy to mix in. I did do better today managed to eat 3 meals and a snack although it did include some unhealthy choices. I didn't know you have to eat more if you exercise. OH first time in idk how long. I walked only for 15min. But it was .9 miles.. So its a start. Funny thing happened to me today.. I had no appetite. At all. I had to force in everything I ate. Idk how that happened but it felt good to feel like I can really do this

@Ming1951 I did struggle with the skim milk today and with the water.. I'm going to switch milk for a week or so. Yes I agree with my son needing to eat better too. We hardly eat out but now he has basketball practice so we stopped at disgusting McDonalds. I felt guilty the whole drive thru.. I told him that its unhealthy for both of us and although I strongly dislike McDonalds I usually end up grabbing a Burger if he gets one. He said he understands so hopefully it will be our last trip to buy pink foam filled burgers!! I can get sick just thinking about it.. Or taco bells 30%beef tacos. Now I just buy the taco bell seasoning and make my own.
And ty I feel that my mind is made up!! I will do this! I need a darn scale tho. Haven't owned one in years Lol. I'm anxious to see if I dropped a pound. I sure hope. It feels like it!! Oh and I know about going out being a weakness.. Almost every crappy choice I made was out.. Or visiting relatives. I need to take drinks with me so no excuses

snowflake954

Please take your measurments and keep a journal with the dates--I do once a week but once a month is fine too. Sometimes you won't drop weight, but will lose inches. Also, when you think you're not making progress you can go look at that tape measure and see how many inches since you started. Seems strange, but as you lose you forget how far you've come.

cerise_noir

I am here to cheer you on. You can do this!!!

heather240

@snowflake954 I will get some tonight. Do I just measure the largest part?
52" waist!! I think it was even larger a few weeks ago.. But I'm using 52. I don't remember what the exact number was.. But I believe it was almost 55"!!
16.5" neck. I only know this because my son had to measure body parts for homework. I went and looked in the mirror to see if he was mistaken.. He wasn't!

@cerise_noir thank you so much. It means a lot to me. And I'm actually cheering myself on for the first time in such a long time.

I'm going to get a scale.. For weight and for the kitchen. I won't know if its the same as the doctors reading a few weeks ago.. But if its under 240.. Im pretty sure I've lost a pound or 2 just in abdominal bloat alone!! I will check a cpl scales and see if they're accurate before purchase. Oh and no maple syrup or pop for days now.

If I have nutrition questions do I use this forum.. Or go to nutrition?

snowflake954

heather240 wrote: »

@snowflake954 I will get some tonight. Do I just measure the largest part?
52" waist!! I think it was even larger a few weeks ago.. But I'm using 52. I don't remember what the exact number was.. But I believe it was almost 55"!!
16.5" neck. I only know this because my son had to measure body parts for homework. I went and looked in the mirror to see if he was mistaken.. He wasn't!

@cerise_noir thank you so much. It means a lot to me. And I'm actually cheering myself on for the first time in such a long time.

I'm going to get a scale.. For weight and for the kitchen. I won't know if its the same as the doctors reading a few weeks ago.. But if its under 240.. Im pretty sure I've lost a pound or 2 just in abdominal bloat alone!! I will check a cpl scales and see if they're accurate before purchase. Oh and no maple syrup or pop for days now.

If I have nutrition questions do I use this forum.. Or go to nutrition?

For measurements I do: waist (between breasts and bellybutton), stomach (bellybutton), hips (feel where your hip bone sticks out the most), thigh (biggest part), neck. I didn't do breasts since I've always been smaller and didn't ever have much to lose there. When you go back after a year and have lost 10" or more off your waist, it's always a picker upper especially if you've hit a plateau. I recommend it.