Looking for help losing weight, long way to go.

AngelsCry

I have been heavy all my life. As a result, my self-esteem is extremely poor and I have no confidence. I didn't like to do sports because others made fun of me and called me names. Woman treated me terribly for most of my life. That only made me stay inside and eat more.

Fast forward to 25years old and I got my first girlfriend. Someone who didn't care I was big. It was funny, after that I didn't eat as much. I ate less, ate healthy, and started to exercise. Even made it down to 200 pounds. But eventually we had to go our separate paths. Long distance relationships are very hard to maintain, and kinds costly.

After that I started gaining again, but it wasn't so bad as I found a new girlfriend. So I started losing the weight again and feeling great. Then a bunch of terrible stuff happened. She dumped me to go back to her ex. Shortly after that one brother was in the hospital with a cyst in the brain. He made it which was great. However January rolls around and I get a call. It was to inform me that my other brother had died. A lot of bad things happened. My grandmother even broke her ankle in three places to I had to help with that for awhile.

My friends ended up moving out of state. Most are in North Carolina and Virginia now. So I lost the ability to be close to my friends in this entire mess. I still talk and keep in touch, but my best friend for many years recently started to ignore me and take advantage of me. During the holidays I bought her and her daughter some nice presents. Tablets, books, some gift cards, etc. So I spent about 300 or 400 on them. Which used to be no big deal as we were close. I should have probably spent less, but I ended up trying to hard to stay in their life. Well, I get a text message about the middle of December asking if I could pay the power bill. It was pretty expensive, especially for the middle of the holiday's. But, I agree to pay the 537 bucks.

Again move forward to Christmas and I don't even get a greeting. I wasn't expecting presents or anything like that. But maybe a merry Christmas text, or a couple pictures of her kid opening her gifts. Instead, I was ignored. Day after Christmas arrived and I ended up getting a text asking if I could pay her cell phone insurance so she could upgrade. To make it even worse her friends were posting on her facebook pictures of the presents they got from her. But I wasn't even worth a Merry Christmas? Over the years I have helped he a lot. She got divorced and then went into an abusive relationship. But now I was no longer a friend. And that was really it for me. I told her what I needed to and wish her and her daughter all the best.

All these things made me come to a diehard conclusion. I need to regain control of my life. I need actual friends, people I can trust and count on. I need to lose weight to help my health and career. And if at all possible I would like to find a girlfriend, as I really don't like being alone. I never had the greatest luck with girls as I have no confidence and overall I look pretty bad. I hoping to find people to help me change. People I can be friends with, compete against, and just get to know. I don't know if it will happen, but I figured it was worth taking a shot. My life really needs to turn around and I'm hoping someone out there can help me change for the better. Nice to meet you all and good luck on your goals!

Current weight - 250 lbs.
Height - 5' 9".
Goal weight - 171 lbs.
Target Date - ASAP.

Any questions you have, feel free to ask. And sorry for the long post. I thought it would be important to see a little of where I can from and what finally broke me.