Diabetic and need motivation

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I just got a scared i got off meds over 19 months ago while training for a marathon had a car accident which took my bsck out i lost alot of ground on training and ate poorly theast six month as i also have an eating disorder due to.ptsd childhood trauma. Food is my vice but i have to get myself together doc said lose 10% in 90 days and lower my a1c ive already lost 5# this past 2 weeks. So just dont want to lose my mojo. Emmy