Stupid Skinny, be careful what you wish with for!

msaprilm1

Throughout out my teenage and adult years I have been ruthless to my body, abuse would be an understatement. From fad dieting, to laxatives to becoming an anorexic, yup, been there done it all. My big NSV was quitting smoking at the beginning of 2013, yay me, right? Nope! I rapidly gained 12 pounds and my sicko little brain said too fat. So I pulled out all the stops, eating 900 calories daily, working out 90 minutes everyday, everything that I know on how to lose weight for me, hey I know its not healthy or right and it is advise I share with no one, it is however, the way I have been doing it for 20 years. Although I did all of me normal weight fix its, my weight didn't budge, hmmm. Although I was frustrated, my spouse said how sexy I look and how happy he was with the new found boobs, so I finally had my aha moment, I looked in the mirror and said "damn girl, you have curves and look at those boobs!".
I have not been feeling well and finally made an appointment, and although I thought I was finally the picture of health, my doc gave me no good news. My thyroid went all hypo on me, I am actually great with that news but I do believe in some funny way this is my body flipping my brain off, haha, you win body!
So skip a day or two, I had an ultrasound of my pelvic area, lady trouble ya know, my doc called on Friday (thanks wizard) and over the phone gave me the news that I have Stage 4 Ovarian Cancer and to have a wonderful weekend because my life is truly about to begin.

If you take anything from this, let it be that your body is your temple and you only have one shot. Live life, love life, be kind to strangers, smile often and kiss your family every chance you get. With love, April xoxoxoxo

socajam

Throughout out my teenage and adult years I have been ruthless to my body, abuse would be an understatement. From fad dieting, to laxatives to becoming an anorexic, yup, been there done it all. My big NSV was quitting smoking at the beginning of 2013, yay me, right? Nope! I rapidly gained 12 pounds and my sicko little brain said too fat. So I pulled out all the stops, eating 900 calories daily, working out 90 minutes everyday, everything that I know on how to lose weight for me, hey I know its not healthy or right and it is advise I share with no one, it is however, the way I have been doing it for 20 years. Although I did all of me normal weight fix its, my weight didn't budge, hmmm. Although I was frustrated, my spouse said how sexy I look and how happy he was with the new found boobs, so I finally had my aha moment, I looked in the mirror and said "damn girl, you have curves and look at those boobs!".
I have not been feeling well and finally made an appointment, and although I thought I was finally the picture of health, my doc gave me no good news. My thyroid went all hypo on me, I am actually great with that news but I do believe in some funny way this is my body flipping my brain off, haha, you win body!
So skip a day or two, I had an ultrasound of my pelvic area, lady trouble ya know, my doc called on Friday (thanks wizard) and over the phone gave me the news that I have Stage 4 Ovarian Cancer and to have a wonderful weekend because my life is truly about to begin.

If you take anything from this, let it be that your body is your temple and you only have one shot. Live life, love life, be kind to strangers, smile often and kiss your family every chance you get. With love, April xoxoxoxo

Sorry to hear about you bad news. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family at this difficult time.

Courtneay10

My prayers are with you, continue to love this newfound skin you are in, and treat your body great..... Taking care of yourself physically and mentally is honestly a way alot of people placed their cancer in remission or cured it.

kali31337

Oh my. I'm so sorry. My thoughts and prayers are for you and your family through out this challenging time

MercenaryNoetic26

Sorry about your diagnoses. I am glad you shared your story so others can see how an obsession to be skinny can turn unhealthy. T&P for you.

Eta: the cancer may have been unrelated to the dieting... I realize that.

pittbullgirl

I am sorry to hear this! I hope that you continue with strength and determination, pushing forward with all that you have.

My thoughts are with you.

Lisaraige

I'm so sorry for your news! I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer last year and have had 4 surgeries, 8 rounds of chemo , 34 rounds of radiation, and am now on a hormonal pill for the next 5-10 years. 31 and in menopause-yikes! Cancer sucks, and I am so sorry you have to go through this.

Gee_24

I'm so sorry to hear about this. Thank you for sharing your story as I know there are many people on here ( me for example ) who have also tried or are trying the methods you had used in the past.

Stay strong, and thank you. x

msaprilm1

Thank you all, the reality of all my poor choices roles out to the fact that I do not want to die, not today not tomorrow and I will do whatever it takes to be healthy, happy and most of all be the winner in this. I'm in a weird phase right at this time, denial, it sucks!

mrsway2004

Sorry to hear this........You sound so strong, hang on to your strength.

Kicker12

Very sorry to hear your news. I wish you strength and courage on your journey to full health.

lorettasnewbeginning

So sorry to hear of your diagnoses. Thank you so much for reaching out to warn others. Thoughts and prayers go with you as enter this battle!

poofycat

I m so sorry...I will keep you in my prayers. Continue to focus on getting healthy and having a positive attitude. Hugs to you.

madworld1

I'm so sorry. Thank you for sharing your thoughts and story.

MyJourney1960

If you take anything from this, let it be that your body is your temple and you only have one shot. Live life, love life, be kind to strangers, smile often and kiss your family every chance you get. With love, April xoxoxoxo

Hugs hugs hugs.

I had ovarian cancer 15 years ago, and here i am. I went through surgery and chemo and it was hell on earth but I am a fighter and here i am.

I did not give up. I got through it. You will get through it.

sam308lbs

i am so sorry to hear this.Sending prayers your way

bakingforlife

Sorry to hear about your very bad news ,research research. Diet is key !!!!! Hallelujah Acres or dr fuhrmans plant based diet. Eat to live eat for health . The china study ......my thoughts and prayers are with you .

KenosFeoh

Oh no; so sorry!

Something like this really puts things like pounds lost or gained into perspective, doesn't it?

inkwithgold

I'm very sorry to read about your diagnosis! My thoughts are with you during this difficult time, and my prayers go out to you for remission/recovery.

mummum2

So sorry to hear you news! Thoughts and prayers sent to you and keep up that fantastic attitude you seem to! Blessings!

FFfitgirl

Best of luck to you. You know you are a strong person, dont ever think otherwise

Thank you for posting this. I have struggled with eating disorders and was kind of a wake up call for me

Fredderfy

I can't even begin to imagine how you feel, what you're going through or how tough what you're going to go through will be but I wish you all the luck in the world and however hard it gets, don't stop fighting because many have beaten it and you hopefully can too.

Good luck, and keep your head up. xx

QueenWino

Thank you for posting this. I am sorry. We're meant to fully live our lives and some of us get stuck in these weight or body battles that take so much of our energy away from the good and beautiful around us. I appreciate your giving me a little awareness today.

DVaughan1975

Prayers for you and your family. I am so sorry to hear of your diagnosis. Please take care of yourself and be strong.

302cupcake

Ovarian Cancer is not staged on ultrasound results alone - before accepting a Stage 4 diagnosis (which means cancer has spread to the liver and other organs) please see a Reproductive Oncologist to discuss CT scans, PET scans and tumor debulking surgery. Any doc who would give you this news by phone without thorough testing may not be interpreting the ultrasound results correctly. My Stage 2 cancer was not seen on ultrasound but was found during routine abdominal surgery.

xMuscles

brave to share

BluejayNY

I am so sorry to hear of your diagnosis. I will be thinking of you and sending get better vibes your way

msaprilm1

Thank you all for all well wishes:-) My diagnosis came after two pelvic exams, a biopsy and tons of blood work. Upon the trans vag ultrasound, they confirmed tumors on both left and right ovaries and found masses in my bladder and on my cervix. Nothing is set other than it has spread and if I do no not act now I may not have a chance. I have an mri scheduled for Tuesday and surgery scheduled on Friday morning. It is what it is, cheers!

Edited to say, this "journey" didn't happen overnight, it took well over a month to get two straight answers. Friday was my bad day, tomorrow might be a better one.

Debbiedebbiey

Sounds like you have an awesome attitude ! Prayers for you :flowerforyou:

chelstakencharge

Praying for you

ms_erica

Prayers go out to you and your family