So Confused?!

dancinrascal

Ok so if I gained from 112 to 118 over xmas break, granted I was probably underweight at 112 lbs and 5' 7", but I was so happy with my body. I had maintained that weight for about 1.5 years and then bam, hit 118 and it won't go down. I did up my calories because I knew that I wasn't eating enough, but my stomach got larger, which is the part of my body that I am the most self conscious about. I pretty much stay at 118 now no matter how much or little I eat. Is this my set point? I'd like to be 115 because added weight is noticeable on my small frame. I am enjoying the amount of food I eat now, but my hunger cues are non existent so I am in a constant state of "omg I am not eating intuitively" but then I remember that I have no intuition lol. Has anyone else been in this constant war of the mind? Its like the more time that goes on the harder and harder it is to maintain. I used to have sooo much self control and now I find my self snacking constantly when I'm not even hungry. UGH What used to work for me isn't working any more.

dancinrascal

anyone??

MyaPapaya75

Well I read what you posted but you contradict yourself ....you said you pretty much stay at the same weight no matter what you eat and then state you snack all the time.....which is it? Hard to respond if you don't even know...are you pretty consistent with logging food?

dancinrascal

i was the same weight and then i went up and no matter what i do it won't go back down....im finding myself losing will power that i had for a solid 1.5 yrs. I upped my cals because they were a little too low, and I stayed around 112-113, but then christmas came it went up to 118. now no matter how vigilant i am it won't go back down. it is also difficult because i have no hunger cues at all...i could probably get by on 1 meal a day, but i know this isn't healthy.

peanutbutterrunna

Are you recovering from a restrictive eating disorder by chance?

dancinrascal

i would say so i guess. i was stupid the first time i wanted to lose weight and kept reducing lower and lower to around 800 a day. I felt okay minus some crankiness, and i figured "oh my metabolism must suck guess this is the amount i need". i didn't know about starvation mode but now i do and im worried that i totally screwed myself over and that i mindlessly eat on occasion because my body needs food. overall, im okay with my body. its just my lower stomach that truly bothers me as i feel out of proportion. now i eat around 1300-1400. i upped to 1300 a while ago and was about 113-115 which was ok, but now when i eat 1300 i stay at 118.

peanutbutterrunna

i would say so i guess. i was stupid the first time i wanted to lose weight and kept reducing lower and lower to around 800 a day. I felt okay minus some crankiness, and i figured "oh my metabolism must suck guess this is the amount i need". i didn't know about starvation mode but now i do and im worried that i totally screwed myself over and that i mindlessly eat on occasion because my body needs food. overall, im okay with my body. its just my lower stomach that truly bothers me as i feel out of proportion. now i eat around 1300-1400. i upped to 1300 a while ago and was about 113-115 which was ok, but now when i eat 1300 i stay at 118.

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Scubanana7

I am sorry but I have a hard time with worrying about 3 pounds (118 to 115?). I don't want to be mean but please. Count yourself a very very lucky girl. If you think you are snacking too much, then stop the snacks or only snack on veges. I don't know how much you are working out, but if you are, then add a few minutes hard cardio. If not, then start moving.

Have any idea how many of us would kill to be worrying about 3 pounds? Again, I do NOT mean to sound rude. But you are smart to recognize there is something going on before you gain 10, then 30. So, like I said, just up the exercise a bit and don't panic.

Good luck honey. and 112 is really tiny. maybe your body just needs the extra?

grimendale

If you're that close to goal weight, I think it is time to stop worrying about the scale and look at your body fat. 5 lbs is well within the normal water/glycogen fluctuation levels, so obsessing over the scale is going to drive you insane. It's never going to stay constant at 112; your body doesn't work that way. Take body measurements and track those. If you aren't gaining inches, you aren't gaining fat. You'll be a lot happier in the long run if you can let the scale go.

dancinrascal

thanks everyone. i am going to steadily up my cals. either im too low or too high because my body tries to compensate. i think i need to find a balance, actually stop logging every bite, and put the scale away for a little while.