I gained 60 lbs in one year. It's time to fight back

LosingLaurensWay

Hello all!

It's been some time since I've posted here! As always that is usually due to my struggle with my weight loss or I've gained weight.

This time It was a combo of those things. I won't go in to the reasons behind my weight gain over the past year because I feel like I've been using those reasons as permission to binge eat and not work out. As always this journey has been about living with an eating disorder and how to counter it.

Today's post comes from a less positive milestone - I saw 300 pounds on the scale for the first time in nearly 3 years. I remember when I dipped below 299. I exclaimed I would never see those numbers again. that I had changed. I felt invincible... Now I find myself utterly humbled by my disorder. As usual I beat myself up and criticized myself harder than anyone ever could. I felt completely lost as I let all of my life goals fall into a hazy darkness... Then I saw a note I left for myself on my mirror,

"Remember who you are and what you have accomplished"

This was something I wrote myself within the past few months to keep myself focused on my art career and my goal to break in to the gaming industry. Today, I find it reminding me of my weight loss journey and exactly how far I've come.

I have come so far and I have accomplished so much.

So, I went back to my past self and asked for advice. I found my food logs of what I was eating at this weight and what my exercise regiment looked like... and it is 100% obtainable! Just as it was when I was losing weight before! Exercise 4 times a week, freshly made, balanced meals, very little sugar and sodium and logging every. little. thing. The last missing element talking to you guys and a sense of community. I was so reflective on my journey at this stage and felt so supported by absolute strangers, that is something I am gravely missing. I'm hiding. I'm not going out. I'm letting my eating disorder take over me.

It's time to fight back and find balance once again with my greatest ally... myself.




This is my art facebook page - https://www.facebook.com/LaurenWalshArt - if you are interested in checking out my art.

Heather4448

I just wanted to say your art is lovely! Really beautiful!