I guess im just not ready to die yet

Pandakins1969

I was just writing a message to a new friend on here about my weight gain/loss battles and it struck me as i wrote that for me THIS time the weight loss isn't just all about wanting to look good.
Sure that's a big part of it and id be lying if i said i didn't want to look better but the truth is its more than that.
I guess i suddenly became aware of my own mortality.

Im 48 in 3 weeks..i dont look it *hurray* but i feel it. My poor overloaded body has had enough of dragging this fat around. I dread to think whats going on inside and the damage already done. 65 is only 17 years away and its perfectly feasible that i could die when im 65. I really don't like that thought at all, i had visions of living to over 85 but i'm not sure i'll make it that far. How many obese pensioners do you see? Not so many, because they never make it to old age.

It scares me that i could only have 17 years left. I'm sure to a lot of you younger ones 48 seems so old. But i dont FEEL any different to how i did at 30, not inside anyway. I have so many things i want to do, so much life left i want to live. I feel like i've barely started.
Sure i want to look good, who does'nt. But the truth is i just don't want to die.

Wearedoingthis

Happy for you, Pandakins. I hope you live to 85+

inertiastrength

That's a great reason to take care of your body. You're in the right place and among good company