Trying to get back on track....

DecayingPachimari

Heya! I'm Candace. I used this website a long time ago to track my weight, but went in my own direction later on.
I've made the choice to try and get back into shape, I am tired of being so unconfident with my body.

Reasons why I gained: (Trigger warning)
A long time ago, I was dating someone who I thought was perfect for me. Turns out, he was a lying *kitten*. Cheated on me several times and lied about it, even when I caught him.
The night I broke up with him, he molested me. I haven't seen him since, and I don't plan to..
Within the time after the break up, I binge ate anything I could find. I gained several pounds within just a few months. Suddenly today, after crying for a good hour or so, I finally decided to change it.
Just recently I decided to get my hair cut short, my ex wouldn't let me cut it. It grew to about three feet past my butt. Now, I have shoulder length curls! What was cut will be donated.

So yeah, that's me. I was diagnosed with twelve disorders during the relationship, because my depression was worse with him. I went to rehab for drug use and popping pills.
And with God's great mercy, survived 13 suicide attempts.

I am on a much better track mentally, I have an absolutely wonderful boyfriend who loves me to no end. I wouldn't be alive if it weren't for him. I thank God for him every single day. (We've been dating for almost 2 years~)
He treats me like a precious gemstone. He gives me the love I feel like I deserve. He's my favorite person.

So that's me. A shy, scared, but motivated little gamer who just wants to be beautiful again.
Thank you for reading, lovely