I want my body back!

DiamondRidge

Hey everyone!

I'm Rebecca, I'm a 33 year old 5'3" lady who, until last week, was content to carry around 287lbs every day. I'm done with that garbage. I'm better than the junk food that I used to choose. I'm done with the couch over the gym. I'm done being proud of myself for hauling my fat *kitten* up the mountain - I want to be proud of myself for running my skinny *kitten* up it! I'm done telling my girls how they should make better food choices while I sneak a piece of cake for breakfast. And I'm done making excuses for why I don't do the things I used to do - because that's all they are, they're excuses. My body knows how to be fit. My brain knows how to eat right. Its time for me to step up and do this.

Last Saturday, when I weighed myself, I was 287lbs. This is down 30lbs from my highest of 317lbs, but still - yuck. My roommate and I (she can choose to identify herself or not, she is on this site though) decided together that enough is enough - we went down to the gym around the corner from our house and joined - I committed for the full year (I don't like to waste my money, so, since its already paid for, I'll keep at it, even when I don't want to). Not only did we join the gym, but we decided to work with a personal trainer 3x per week. I am driven by results. I go hard and I go fast - but if I don't see change, I get frustrated and quit. I need someone who will push me past that, someone who will call me out on my **** and someone who will remind me why I am on this journey. Its not enough for me to post my goals on the fridge, or to put reminders in my phone - I need to have accountability. Enter the trainer and the roommate.

So far this week, I've done really well! We worked out with the trainer for a little under an hour on Monday night (I thought I might die, but I kept at it - turns out, I'm not dead yet), we missed Tuesday night because I pulled an extra shift at work (professional choice - and it was a good one), we were at the gym at 5:30AM on Wednesday and did half an hour on the bike and elliptical - then off to work for another 13 hour day, this morning was a sleep morning (well, kind of, I still had to get up at 6:30 to get to work, but I wasn't going to get up at 4:30 to be at the gym at 5:00, not today, at least) but I've still got this evening to get my body moving. Friday we have a training session in the morning. Saturday I think I'm going to brave my first ever Zumba class before our training session. Sunday, I'll rest. Monday - back to it. And I've been tracking everything that goes into my mouth and staying very close to or under my calorie budget every day! I'm trying to avoid the temptation to step on the scale and see what's down, I'm determined to wait until Saturday. I know it will have good news. But, the better news is that I feel better already - I can't wait to watch my body change and I am super excited to eBay the gown I bought for next May's wedding - and GO DRESS SHOPPING!

I'm bull-headed, opinionated, motivated, hard-working, goofy, kind of obnoxious sometimes, caring, compassionate, and painfully honest.

I put some of my before pictures up on my profile. They are from 2009 - present. In the pics, I'm the short one.

There's an athlete inside me, begging to shine. Shine on, baby, shine on!

FourIsCompany

I'm bull-headed, opinionated, motivated, hard-working, goofy, kind of obnoxious sometimes, caring, compassionate, and painfully honest.

Wow! My twin! :happy:

I loved your intro and your determination. I know how easy it is to START a program and I also know how hard it is to KEEP at it. But when I think of all the time I've wasted starting and stopping and starting again, I get so frustrated! I just started (again) this week and joined this board. Haven't had my first weigh-in yet, but, like you, I'm tempted every morning. But discipline is one thing I know I've lacked in the past and I'm going to wait till Monday for the reward.

Good luck to you and your roommate!

Meekayla

Hi Rebecca, my names Michaela, I'm 47 years old & have just signed up with the fitness pal site. I fully understand how your feeling & know myself that if you don't eat the rubbish & exercise regularly then not only will you feel better but look better too!!!

I recently had a full hysterectomy & have now gone into menopause & have piled on the weight & am feeling so low & depressed & realise that only I can do something about it & I need to pull myself together & start eating healthier foods & get my *kitten* into gear & exercise more.

I saw your message & liked your heading 'I want my body back' (I want mine back too) i just felt I wanted to reply to you & maybe we can give each other support along our journey. You've done brilliant this week with your work out & if you keep that up you'll be looking fab soon!!

Hope you don't mind me messaging you, good look with your journey

DiamondRidge

Thanks ladies! We've got this! We're on it.

Always room in my heart for new friends - message away!

KardioKim

I, too, like your heading. I want my body back, too.

My life is stressed right now and I know exercise will help me feel calm and empowered at the same time.

We can do this!

Friend me!

DiamondRidge

@KardioKim - you've got it!