Hello everyone!

ddaniellemariee7

I'm not new to calorie counting, but I am new to being healthy. I am a recovered anorexic (7years recovered) I almost died, it was bad. But during my recovery process, I started to gain weight and I saw and still see all the damage I've caused to my body. I struggle everyday, there are days I just don't eat, there are days I make myself throw up. I have been trying so hard not to relapse, I still see my therapist often, and with permission I wanted to lose weight and do it the right way. I started working out again and have been making much better choices with food. Because of my recovery and my therapist worried for me, I gained weight but I am now 30lbs overweight and I do need to lose it. I don't have a support system and to be honest I could use one. I don't want to relapse, I don't want to workout for hours upon hours and not eat. I just want to be healthy and I am struggling managing both. My family doesn't support me, (my mom almost let me die when I was anorexic, and my husband has said he isn't attracted to me because of my weight and he doesn't care about my past or what I am doing to change it) I want to do this for myself but I need help to not relapse and just be healthy. I'm out of shape, I can't stay motivated because my mind sees the easy way out of just not eating.