athlete gone blob

mjtaylor87

I have always been a big girl. And i am fine being a big girl but i have gotten way to unhealthy.

In high school I was always big. But it wasn't a bad big. it was a strong big. I was an athlete. In
volleyball I was a back center. I had great control over my body and could land the ball where ever was needed. Softball i was a catcher that had great reflexes and a wicked arm. I was also a heavy weight co-ed wrestler. I had a low center of gravity and was quick with reversals.

Now I have 2 kids and a husband. I was diagnosed with Fibromyagia 2 years ago and I have aloud it to bring me down. If you don't know what that is here is the short version: it is a nerve disorder that causes the nerves in my body to tell my brain that I am in pain when there is nothing causing pain. The smallest touch can feel like being hit with a baseball bat. My son sitting on my lap feels like a grown man jumping on me. During bad flare ups the sun, just on a normal day, can feel like being branded by a hot poker. It causes sensory sensitivity, which in me, can make my boys just running around the back yard yelling feel like i am at a drag strip with do ear protection. SO i have let it keep me in side. keep me away from doing things with me kids.

In high school when i felt my healthiest i was a little over 200lbs. I started my weight loss journey last month at 306lbs. Right now i am stuck at 290lbs. I am so out of shape that i have to sit down half way though a zumba video. I put my boys in a bake carriage every night and ride them around the block 3 times. that equals a mile and i almost collapse when i am done. but then i want to cry because my boys beg for just one more trip around but i cant do it.

I am trying to cut carbs not so much because i think it is a fast track to loosing weight but when i start tracking on here i realized that we were eating more carbs than calories on a daily bases. Sad things is i can by the stuff to buy spaghetti and garlic bread for half the price it would cost to make a descent salad. So i have a hard time keeping the carbs low.

I really would like some friends on here that will actually comment on the things I post. keep me accountable when i haven't posted in a couple of day. I will do the same for you all too. I want some one that can help push me to do more. and tell me when i actually made good choices. Some one that will look at my food diary and tell me i should not have eaten that. I know i sound very needy but right now that is really what i need.

MY husband is on this journey with me too trying to loose weight but he is very sweet. he wont tell me i shouldn't have ate that or you need to go work out. we go on the bike rides together and we eat healthy together but i need a little more pushing.