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nemmifox

Hello everybody! My name is Emma but I go by Nemmi. I am seventeen years old and recovering from various wild eating disorders.

I began life being very chubby and having it asserted by my mom who, unfortunately, did more harm than good. What started as healthy weightloss turned into a plateau and the fear of being criticized again, so it turned into starvation, as in 0-700 calories per day and five hours minimum of walking per day, along with jogging for as long as I could stand every other day and Zumba every single day. It's was hellish. Flash forward through middle school and I was always underweight from them on. Get to high school though, and a bingeing disorder took its place as I started dealing with stress differently. I stopped working out, eating healthy, and just ate way too much processed food. Every now and then I'd fall back into starving myself, however I never actually got below 127 lbs, which for a person who is 5'3 is an average bmi of 22.5.

My goal here today is to begin exercising every day like I used to but much less, focusing on building muscle and burning off this weight I've gained. A few days ago I had a revelation about losing weight and for three days (which, is actually a record for me) ate below 2,000 calories. Which... is incredible for me right now. Because not did I just eat less than 2,000 calories, I ate more than 1,000. Actually healthy for me. I'm very excited to begin my journey again and get to a healthy weight for my senior year of high school. As of right now, I am 156.4 lbs and going strong from my highest weight ever of 159.8 three-four days ago. I can't wait to join you all and make this a successful, complete recovery