Today was not a good day...Starting and have to Finish

ShebazJenkins

Today was not a good day and maybe I need to vent or whatever but here it goes.

I went to my Dr today after a few months. I have had ongoing BP issues for about a year that have caused some problems. Had it under control until about 6 weeks ago when I completely fell of the wagon.

Some backstory: My name is Ryan and I am a 36yo male. I have been overweight since my sports days ended. It has consistently climbed over 15 years. I have had some success multiple times in trying to lose but after sometime it stops and comes right back. I have also been battling depression and severe anxiety. The anxiety has been around as long I can remember. I was doing very well about 6 months ago and then got laid off from work and fell apart. I have had a horrible diet and activity level since and been very irregular with my meds. I am now the highest weight I have ever been.

Currently I am 359.8lbs at 6ft tall. My BP was very high I was not in a great mental state. The doctor has now referred me to a cardiac exercise program and dietician as well as returning to a psychologist. I own these things and it is what it is but it was a pretty low day.

I now have to get back on track for real so that I am around for while. I won't lie and say I feel confident but I don't have much choice at this point.

There, all off my chest and on to Day 1. Send me good thoughts and prayers fellow losers.

theabsentmindednurse

Hi Ryan.

Welcome to MFP.
Reading your story I can see so many positives.
You have seen your doctor and made the decision to get help.
A big step. Something that we all need to do in order to become healthier and take control of our own life.
You are going to have a team on board who will help you on this journey.
All very positive steps.

This is a lifetime commitment. Take it at day at time. Try not to look at how much weight you need to lose, but break it down into small achievable goals.

You will learn, grow, stumble, fall, but you will get up and keep going.

Congratulations on making the first step.

soojiimei

Hey Ryan,

Depression and anxiety sux!

I'd love to see how you progress. I have mild anxiety issues but controllable. ive called in sick this week to deal with it and some other issues. Its also made me realise how much its destroying my health and socially ive become alot withdrawn.

High BP is scary but that you have a plan and acknowledge the challenge ahead is a good start..i hope you stay motivated and as an outcomr, you will see results - slowly but surely. You will have good days..and thats that arent that good but the main thing is you remember your goals.

Good luck!

From

Jenny